So, I’ve been depressed for about 2 years when my ex broke up with me. It wasn’t like that at first; I gradually became depressed.
Anyhow, she was my first girlfriend at the age of (me) 23, and (her) 18.
Unable to move past her, despite trying, I tried to suffocate my self with a plastic grocery bag and a couple of rubberbands over my head and neck, respectfully. First time I panicked within three minutes; second time my skin started to tingle in the hands and feet.
I had left my ex a little deathnote, asked her not to stop me, and ended up stopping myself twice. Once in panic, second in boredom.
Anyhow, I told both my ex and a friend that I had failed. They both told my band director at college and he sent a cop to my house. I willingly, unwillingly (if that makes sense) went to the local hospital for treatment… for 10 days, where I laid in bed doing absolutely nothing.
I am now on 40mgs of Paxil.
I had been communicating well with my ex since I got out, until last night… where she basically told me to kill myself… great…
Granted, there are more details… but I am, oh, so tired…
So, so far I have taken  70, 325 mgs of aspirin, with half a bottle of Captain Morgan in the past 3 hours.
Maybe I’ll be able to read the comments tomorrow… I hope not…
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You’d have better luck standing in the middle of a field waiting for a meteorite to hit you than overdosing. Seriously. And don’t kill yourself over some girl. There are at least a few billion girls in the world. You’ll find another love interest. I promise. In the meantime, find a hobby.
Being alone in life can be a very debilitating and significant phase, as it essentially tells you that things will always be this way. It is a pain–a wound, that hurts all over, however, it is one that only you can suture. If someone leaves you, then have the perspective that you didn’t need them. You cannot rely on someone to provide you with happiness. It simply will not work. It may be hard, things may feel meaningless in your life right now, but hold fast to the truth that there is definitely someone else there for you. Taking care of your life’s situations, e,g, school, work and sociability, is paramount in improving your mood. Don’t have a girlfriend? Doesn’t matter! Go out somewhere that you’ve ever been to before! Let that experience be the benchmark for your new beginning.