Turned Off

Why do I not have the energy or the excitement needed to enjoy myself during the day?  What is it about me that drives people away, like I’m some sort of weirdo?  I can smile, I can play the part, but it’s all fake and I know it.  I’m not going to pretend I’m your best friend, but I don’t dislike your company either, you know?  Yet I’m excluded even though I’m not exactly bullied.  Summer is my break from that, but it also seems to be a break from my true friends too so far, for the most part.  I guess they’re turned off by me too, at last.