Can’t Take It Anymore

So I’ve been trying for so long, but literally every breath I take hurts. Every time I see him smile at another girl it kills me. Every time I see my ex-best friends laughing and smiling, I catch my breath and I want to crawl into fetal position and cry. I miss them so much, and they all knew my darkest secrets. They knew just how much they meant to me, and they left me in the fucking dust. I became the girl who never said a word in class because if I did I might just spill my guts to everyone. I went from high nineties to barely passing all of my classes. My depression rules my life. I can’t say a word to anyone in my class because they all saw me go through the horrible bull shit… I hate this. Just make the fucking pain end.