I found this site by looking up “kill your self or deal with your ugly body” I have been so sad and lonely for 5 months now like really bad it wasn’t so bad before that I know I have depression. I see a tharapist… but I dont want to tell her about my feelings in fear of going to a hospital…. I have a husband. He has done some hurtful things to make me not trust him. N thats where my insecurity sky rocketed! All thos girls r skiny and pretty n im none of those things. He tells me I dont have to be that way but I know he is lying who wants a ugly wife? He works second shift so I never see him cuz he sleeps all day n that makes me sad too I feel all alone! Even tho as im writing this with tears in my eyes I see my son sleeping so soundly in my arms… I know I cant kill my self I love my son to much but I hate my self so much I just dont know what to do! I feel like a single mother doing all the work n not getting a thank u just once! I hate how my body looks! I hate that my husband dont tell me the truth about my body… I just want to die. I cut awhile ago n want to so bad but im affraid my husband will send me to a hospital… I just am so lost! ),,,,:
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I really dont see any problem with you, you must get rid of these thoughts & be happy. 🙂
Really sorry you’re feeling this way, looks are not everything in life, we all lose our looks in the end and it’s worse for those who were pretty. Try to communicate to your husband how you are feeling, alternatively can you find someone else to confide in? Being a single mum (which is how you feel) is a lot of pressure and can indeed be very lonely. How about groups for mums and babies/toddlers, stuff like that? You need support from others who understand the pressures of caring for a young child.