I stare at a white wall
Hoping for a hand to grab mine
Of course it doesn’t
My hand is ice cold
I let tears fall off my cheeks
Gasping for air
Grabbing my blade
Taking my pills
1..I start to calm down
2…I’m breathing normal
3….A smile creeps upon my face
4…..I feel myself slipping away
5……I drop my pencil
I drop the photo
I drop my memory of you and our smiles
I lose grasp on reality
6…….I stare at the white wall
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I’ll grab your hand.
I feel so useless… I want to kill myself… I really do..
You aren’t useless. You need to find what you love to do.
I found that, but it’s self destructive :S
You can find another thing. That’s the good thing about life; there are so many constructive possibilities that we haven’t explored.
@will692: I agree, but I’m having difficulty trying to do so….
I rather take the “Easier path” and end it.
I know it’s hard, but if you keep working at life, it will get better.
@will692: :/ I don’t know that I’m up for the challenge,,,