My dog was misbehaving a bit today, not the first time and I thought I’d just talk to her so she knows she can’t do what she did. Instead I slapped her in the head so hard that even I could not believe it. Instantly I knew I should not have done that and I regret it very much, but it was as if I was not there, it was someone else hitting her. I feel that dog would be happier some place else, so I will try looking for new home for her and after that I can die. I hope I will, because lots of things aren’t quite right in my life and it was really the last straw that I hit the dog, who did not deserve it. I love the dog, strange as it may sound but I do, she has been my companion for a long time and I’ve never had to hit her before like this. Someone out there may disagree, but I feel like it’s my turn to go, one way or another, just don’t want the dog to be in the same household so she’ll have another trauma if she finds me dead one day. Soon.
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Don’t kill yourself talk to me about it? You’ve obviously came on this site because you want help right? Or someone to talk to? Well I will be more than happy to talk to you about what ever you’d like. I don’t feel suicide should be the choice you take. I know life is stressful and accidents happen. Just talk to me
Yes, you probably should have hit the dog, but you have to forgive yourself. It seems that you are more worried about the dog’s trauma than your own. It’s commendable that you want to find a better home for her, or to a no-kill shelter. While you are there maybe you can fill out a volunteer applications. Sometimes taking care of other beings help us take care of ourselves.