Angry

I get screwed over all the time too by people. The main reason for me at least is because I am different, I unfortunately suffer from something I can’t cure, I can only treat which is scitzoeffective disorder, people always assume the worst about me, or try to categorize me into some narrow category. I stand out though because I’m sad to say not normal.

I also bring it upon myself somewhat since I don’t know how to act around people since I’ve lived in isolation more or less all of my life besides family. So I’ll say something or do something that is not what most people do in social settings. People get turned off by this or assume something else entirely. It’s something I have to live with, I don’t hate people or society I hate myself more than anything. I’m recently getting screwed over in a big way so I feel for you.

I had a manic episode and started ranting and raving on social media. I got the attention of a hacker and assumed it was something bigger since part of the disorder is reading too much into things. Though I did have some bad luck since I believe there are images out there of me that I never took of myself. This escalated because I kept ranting on search engines and the hackers had a front row seat of this menal dude in the midst of mania and a compulsion I had to type into search bars.

This has went on for a long time and now a lot of people are pissed off since I think everything I ranted into search bars got published somewhere and a lot of people now want me to suffer. I have a bunch of people saying I’m getting locked up now for a long time ect and I don’t know what to think. It truly sucks being like I am but society views people with mental illness in a bad light and assumes we are going to go Hannibal lector on people.