before my deployments started i was good for 80k plus a year i was not teh most liked guy in my workplace but I did ok. Teh war taught me to really appreciate what I have and to treat my “clients differently to appreciate their human qualities and understand it wasnt my job to make them miserable instead it was my job to ensure they were safe and in custody. You see I was a Correctional Officer, and an MP. i was my institutions go to guy i worked OT 6 to 8 months a year solid 16 ours a day 7 days a week. I had a custom home minutes away from a very popular body of water. i went to war did my civilian job for my branch of service, got an ARCOM for my effort SEemed back then that I was destined to achieve my dreams have my home paid for have my primary focus on my family. When I returned I found out my new wife was very violent, I went thorugh a brutally ugly divorce. I got terminated from my job as a Correectional Officer for ordering food. I ordered food from a postion that I was allowed to get food before. I became the scorn and hatred of my neighbors, and they made it impossible forme to continue to live at my hosue. they were always filing bogus crime reports and pursuing restraining orders. That was when the local courts began to be one sided and i was getting hammered trying to play by the rules while thepeople around me would lie through their teeth. and get what they wanted. i have snce tried to start a business tried to get bak into my profession, then deployed numerous times got 25k in education benefits, and have started going to school. this last year i ahve been under employed and fell behind on everything i could no longer affird to pay car insurance file my taxes or anything. now Im getting hammered for that and I just had an accident today. a minor one in my landlords vehicle. I work for my rent im going to be homeless. AGAIN>> I want to die, I am fighting a war my state has declared on me and I cannot win nor can I get a reprieve to go to school. Id like to gt a nursing degree. Im not going to be able to go to school as I have 2600 dollars in fines 1300 dollar lawsuit vehicle repairs left and right my family abandoned me. and my support network is very conditional. I. I keep promising myself that if such and shuch happens i will do it then it does, i back it up and double down ,on my efforts and it goes teh same way again.. im beyond hopeless. I look forward to it being all over.
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i don’t understand whythese people are treating you so badly sir, you seem decent and friendly from what you have said. but them trying to pull you down should only be more reason to fight harder. its difficult alto of the time. but as far as i can tell you’ve done nothing wrong. keep fighting. even when you feel like you can’t.x
i agree with E’s comment. i know its harder said than done but do your best i guess thats all any of us can do is keep trying even when theres so much hate and disgust from others when we do are best to not even bother other people
Well, I’m not saying its your fault…..things do tend to happen for a reason though. Things fell and crashed hard after a struggle of years for me. It still sucks. Was it all warrented in my opinion, no. Do I see how and why things were a struggle though and how and why they crashed and fell? Yes. Did I make mistakes along the way, yes. I did not create the way. It was an unfortunate way I was forced to navigate and I did not master the course. But that’s life. No restart button to retry this level. It is what it is, now I have to accept that. I need to adjust accordingly from the mistakes I did make and continue on the best I can from here. That’s all I can do, and that all you can do. It’s all anyone can do. In a situation like this, it’s only fair to equally judge yourself as you judge the others involved. Learn what you can from both yourself and them. Then redirect accordingly and proceed. Good luck to you sir. Life certainly can seem more than overwhelming from time to time.
You were a Screw and a Meat Puppet? So what…National Guard or Army Reserve? MPs need a minimum rank of Lance-Corporal, that’d explain the NCO side of things (since a commissioned officer cannot be arrested by a Private soldier). What was the commendation for? Seems to me that your service ought to be looking after you better.
“Civilian job for you branch of service”. – In saying that: were you operationally deployed in a civilian capacity, or did you simply do what you did in civvy street but in uniform? The one thing I can agree with is that I look for’d to it all being over too.
BOHICA, man.