I’m sick of feeling nothing but pain… Tired of feeling the pain flow inside my head, echoing voices of a constant repeat of words of sharpened steel that have pierced my heart.
I am unwanted in this world, I am hated by many, and have no purpose in this life… I need to be erased, for I am… nothing more than a mistake!
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I feel that too. Worthless, boring, annoying, a total failure. I often suicidal thoughts and the only thing that’s keeping me from putting any of them to action is self harm. I understand that you feel like everyone will be better off without or that you don’t belong where you are but you don’t know that. Some people care more than we think, even if some others don’t. Please don’t do anything, if you need someone to talk to, email me. I promise to be here for you and listen.
My father and step-father have tried to kill me before, did anyone care? NO. I have tried to even kill myself quite a few times… 🙁 did anyone care? NO. In fact, my own mother even told me to go ahead and kill myself quite a few times 🙁 did anyone care? NO. I only put them into action because, of how I was raised, what I’ve been put through and because, I still cannot help but, feel as though everyone in existence would be so much happier with me not even existing. I have made plans for the end of the month… not telling what the results will be. 🙁 If you want to listen, then just read my other posts… Not the poem ones, the others, they should help explain things to a degree, afterwards, we can talk more… if you’re still wanting to that is. 🙁
I wish I could help you.. But I can’t. If you don’t have a purpose at this moment in time, you can always find one in the future..
You could always try… instead of just saying “I can’t”
and as for my future it will be short lived…
most likely that is. 🙁
I think your purpose between now and the end of the year is to show those people they can’t destroy you. Show them you will survive and prosper 🙂
Teach yourself that sometimes just surviving is purpose in itself. Small goals can lead to great things. Please make it a goal to make it through to the next year. Then make it through to the next year.