Tired

” It’s just that I want someone to tell me everyday that they love me”

Touching base everyday, with a quick “I love you” and some brief chit-chat is not too much to ask, yet, it seems like he doesn’t want that. I know this hurts, but it doesn’t sound like he’s such an amazing boyfriend. Maybe he cares about you as a friend but you aren’t really a priority in his life. And at your age, that’s pretty normal.

You also say he’s the reason you weren’t cutting, and that if he doesn’t respond you’ll cut again. This is an unfair burden to place on him, or anyone. People will always be driven away from those who put them in that position, no matter how much they care or want to help.

Have you ever heard of or looked into Dialectal Behavioral Therapy? (I feel like I’m always mentioning that lately) The creator of DBT, Marsha Linehan, was chronically suicidal herself, and she eventually developed a therapeutic model geared toward helping people regulate their emotions and learn how to self-soothe in a healthy way. DBT has a good track record for people who commit to it and work at it. They walk away with coping skills and the ability to take care of themselves, rather than relying on others to “save” them or make them feel better. And, believe me, I’m not judging you – the reason I mention it all the time is because I, too, tend toward the panicky, abandoned feeling, and although I don’t make *others* responsible for my well being, I still have a hard time taking care of myself and regulating my emotions some times. But it’s our responsibility to deal with these things, and it sounds like you might benefit from learning some coping skills.