Thet is hard to imagine, in the thick of a depressive moment that emotions can lift and the depression can leave. After years and y,ears dealing with my depression, I find this is all too true! But we must remember, esp in the middle of an episode that it can change and it can lift!
This morning started out rough, last night’s depression continued to linger. I HAD to go to work, I wanted to go to work, but my heart was really back in the muck. So much so that when a lady asked me for a ride, I was mad. Oye. Not like me. I give people rides all the time but it was cold outside and I was needing to get to work early. My depression was clearly in control. I am glad I did give her a ride and I was mostly mean to me instead. 🙁
I got to work, in the nick of time, I log into my computer and all my windows (forms and information files to take care of my debit card customers). But I was sooo tired from fighting myself all night and worn out!! I asked myself, why am I doing THIS??
If I weren’t so strong, I would have stayed in the muck of my depression and refused to go to work!! Why be so d*** strong?!
But then a funny thing happened. I started enjoying the work, the talking to customers all over the country. The day went fast, and that helped my mood. I was only going through the motions and things did get better.
Keep going, keep moving forward when you can. You never know when something will help you. Search for new things, try the things that have helped you cope in the past too. When you least expect it, things can improve. (Each little thin helps!)
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True! So glad you posted this here!