I have wanted to die for the past 9 years.
I have been cutting for the past 5 years.
Every single days for those past 9 years I have thought about disappearing , running away or just giving up and ending it all. I spent those days thinking how amazing it would be if i could fall asleep a night and never wake up the next morning.
I’ll be turning 21 in two weeks.
Every year for the past 5 years, when i blew out the candles i wished for my life to stop.
Nothing has changed. It’s like life has just been at a standstill.
I still want to die.
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It seems like something has kept you going for the past nine years. That’s a good thing. What’s unsettling is that you shouldn’t be miserable each day for nine years. Have you spoken with someone or been diagnosed? It might be helpful to see a provider to better get some insight and work on a strategy for moving forward. At 21, the world is literally ahead of you. Perhaps meeting with someone and getting some support will allow you to slowly move forward and manage your feelings. The sun might not shine every day but there’s no need for thunderclouds to appear non-stop. Give yourself a chance.
did you try the tweezer thing? it really helped me…….i hope you dont think i’m trying to bug you or anything, just tryin to help
What’s the tweezer thing?