I know it’s a bit late to start a new years resolution. But I decided the other day that I should start writing one or two good things that happen each day for a year and at the end read them all. Sounds like a good idea right? Sounds like it will make you notice the positive things in life, help become a more positive person. Not for me. It’s done exactly the opposite. I’ve realised what a miserable life I have, how cynical and negative I am. I can barely find a good thing that’s happened today and for me it was a busy day, god knows what I’m gonna find good about the weekends. This sucks. Everything sucks. People suck. I suck. I hate how I’m living right now I just want to get out of here, start new.
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I sort of know what you mean. I did the exercise for a while, and although in all fairness, I think you need to give it maybe a month to see the promised effect, what happened to me was that I just felt a little pathetic sitting by myself writing down why my life was good. If my life was good, would I really need to write it down? Wouldn’t it be… obvious?
Atm, my exercise is to do things that frighten me, because fear seems to totally run my life. So today I got into an argument with a douche on the train because he pissed me off, and I felt I should say something even though it scared me. I don’t feel so hot now. I feel like I totally broke a major unwritten social rule, and everyone just seemed to consider me an idiot. It was a reminder of my poor social skills. Oh well.