im debating whether or not to kill myself simply because i dont think anyone is there for me like im there for them and i just feel so alone. i dont know if im becoming depressed or not but everyone in my life is constantly making me feel like a sad story and that im not good enough and that i dont belong there . But judt to let you know i probably wouldnt kill myself beacause i dont have the guts to do it. id probably just try to pull the trigger and break down crying.
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I think people care. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that when the days are dark. As for being not good enough, you’ll honestly never be able to please 100% of those around you. Make a goal and try your best. That’s all anybody can really ask. At some point, you’ll have to steer your own life so it’s important to do things you want to do. If you become in crisis, pick up the phone and get help. Giving up isn’t the answer.
Out of 7 billion people on this planet, the possibility is extremely high.
Maybe it’s time to let go of the ones who don’t care for you and move on. Stop being an emotional salve for those who only use you only when it’s convient for them; and seek relationships that are fair, balanced and meaningful.
But you won’t find any if your dead, so maybe it’s best to give it a shot when your alive.
The truth is that 99% people really don’t care. How could they if they don’t know you? It’s sad because you’re probably a real nice guy or girl. Btw how many people do you honestly care about? You don’t seem completely fed up with life, just really sad. Try finding some distractions (movies, games, things to laugh about), collecting, or an interesting hobby. And remember that you’re never alone.
never alone bc big brother is watching!!!! lol
I care even if i dont know you!
i gotta disagree /w u ryder….i think most ppl care more than they let on….but unfortunately, that care is usually turned inwards…..i see myself as a caring person, which is kinda hard for me to say, i’m way better at self criticism then praise……but i dont necessarily think that being a caring person does the person who cares any good, it usually causes more self harm than anything….but i’m a self mutilator, so, there ya go….to truely empathize, to REALLY care, it makes you incredibly vulnerable to getting hurt, one way or another…..i like to believe that most people start out as caring ppl, but learn pretty quick the consepuences of this proclivity towards kindness, and become quite jaded, pretty quickly
“id probably just try to pull the trigger and break down crying.”
happened to me too already =P
was like, the closest I’d ever been though…was a squeeze away from death…or, prehaps something scaring me…or an earthquake or something…xD
If you’re stubborn enough to let a close friend talk to you all the way through it, those final goodbyes and whatnot…you’ll just break down crying…not because you’re sad, but because they’re sad and they’re breaking down and crying because you’re finally killing yourself =/ or so you thought until that point…
I imagine I’d only ever be capable of killing myself if I were also willing to kill every friend I have, while looking at them straight in the eyes….and then some…
Anyways, if you think you’re letting people use you like you describe…being there for them so much more than they’re around for you…just kick em out of your life, and use that time to find someone you enjoy being around, instead of wasting it on them…
Granted, you might not ever find anyone, but that’s usually the only solution to being around people you don’t like. Feeling like you don’t belong vs. feeling like other people don’t belong with you…gotta balance the two, sort of…if you don’t belong, find other people, if others don’t belong, push those people away? idk, whatever…do what you like 😛 but don’t expect people to not look out for just themselves…just make sure you look out for yourself as well.