Bruised, bleeding and conflicted

I am seriously considering suicide right now; the past week and a half truly. I know most people on here are suicidal but up until recently I’ve just been battling depression and self harm….. but now I could do it at any time….its a constant pro-con battle in my mind. I keep trying to reach out because i feel myself slipping away, but my effort is only met with rejection and bitter disappointment.