I’m tired of always initiating conversations, and never willingly talked to.
I’m tired of being the one to invite them, and they don’t even consider inviting me.
I’m tired of sacrificing my free time planning for us to hang out, and then be ignored when we’re together.
I’m tired of always listening to their troubles and soothing them, and be ignored when I’m sad myself.
I’m tired of the fact that everything I do is hypocritical, and that they are always right.
I’m tired of being told I matter, even though they do all these things to me.
I’m tired of having friends that make me feel like shit and let me cry for hours, and then don’t even bother giving me a legit apology.
I’m am so sick and tired of my friends that hardly lift a finger to hang out with me, yet change their entire schedule to hang out with each other.
But I’m even more tired of the fact that I don’t have to courage to tell them this, because I’m afraid they’ll leave me.
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Its very normal that you are hiding your sadness and your problems from them. Its because you have always experienced from your childhood that people with major problems gets less friendship, respect and love. And people with big and good abilities/money get lots of friend, respect and love.
we all too have experienced that.
We have also experienced in our life that people that have similar problems in content or in intensity understand us and knows how to talk to us and can empathize with us so you will be to express your sadness to this community I guess and you will get a lot of friendship here.
The ones who do all that aren’t truely friends.
Seems like they’re just using you when they feel like.
Don’t bother with them at all anymore if it keeps going like that, find other better friends.
Darling the ones who make you feel like that are not true friends and you deserve so much better. I’m here if you ever need to talk