The Perks Of Being Elizabeth.

Hey Suicide Project!

I’m new to the site and I’m kind of hoping that keeping a blog will be a good outlet for me. I’m Elizabeth and I suffer from a mental disorder known as Dissociative Identity Disorder or (DID). What does this mean? Well formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder or (MPD); DID  is a mental disorder on the dissociative spectrum characterized by at least two distinct and relatively enduring identities or dissociated personality states that alternately control a person’s behavior. But, what does this mean for me? This means that I “host” several other alternate personalities. I refer to myself as the host because although there are several of us, I was born into this body. When alters come in I lose mass amounts of time, I wake up in strange places, I get random charges on my credit cards and worst of all I don’t know what I’ve done. It’s pretty scary and until now I didn’t think I’d ever find love or happiness, but I’ve just recently met a man who like me suffers from DID. He however is integrated and doesn’t fade in and out as I often do. He claims to love and support me and he hasn’t ever done anything to make me believe otherwise but I just find it so hard to believe that anyone could love someone as unstable as me. I suppose that as far as introductions go, this is fine. If you’re at all interested in what I had to say here today, then perhaps you’ll stay interested and continue reading. My alters and I share a journal where often they write to let me know what they did and experienced while in control of the body. I plan on sharing future journal entries and blogging as each of my alters, if they’re willing to perticipate and if the public responds well to my posts. Well, thats all for now. Hope to see ya soon!