So I got my beer on Thursday. It was cooers light so it wasn’t as strong as I wanted. Around midnight, I decided that I’m gonna see if I could commit suicide by train. Drunk, I walked to the railroad tracks then headed right down them, waiting for a train to come. My love was on the phone with me the entire time. I fell several times during all this. With no train in sight, I began sobering up enough to were I didn’t think I could go though with it and decided to go to my dads instead (which was on the way). I arrived about an hour or so after leaving my house. Dad took me in and we parties for two days with Vodka and weed. Damn that shit felt good but what sucks is coming off of it. When the parties over everything is grey again. I had a good time at least.
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Well it’s good to see that you are still here. The train method sounds horrible and scary but I understand. Glad you had a good time sometimes you just have to say F it. What did your love say about it? I bet she was freaking out.
I never would have thought you’d even remotely think of the train method, especially after your research of it…. even if you had a few wobbly pops.
Glad you had a decent time… was wondering where you were.
I know me neither. Hell maybe subconsciously I knew I couldn’t go though with it. My fear level went to almost zero by that time. Thanks I did have a good time drinking but kind of depressed that I drank that much and smoked so much. All I wanna do is sleep now
I’m glad it ended like this and you had a blast
Thank god you didn’t go with the train method, i had a far family member that had his life completely destroyed due to it. He failed and lost both legs… which in turn made him become a full time alcoholic and he lost his kids and wife in the process. Eventually he “finished” what he started, but it was hell for him and his family. I always remember him because he was real fun to be around (i was just a kid when he was still around so all the situation didn’t hit me until later in life). Stuff like that makes you think twice about choosing a sure way out.