I’m from Turkey, shithole country. Everyday news full of rape, theft, explosions, etc… I’m so tired of being part of this bullshit. This country full of crazy religious muslims who will try to kill or beat you if you’re not one of them. I’m not stupid, i’m reading book all day but what for? Waiting someone to kill me or going jail for my thoughts? 21. century is just rubbish. I don’t wanna be part of this life but i can’t kill myself. Because i feel like i haven’t completed somethings or just i’m animal who follow his instincts. I sold my xbox and guitar and bought alcohol with that. Because i thought, i would gonna end my life. I try CO poisoning, i wait 20 minutes and nothing happened. This was 15 days ago. So this morning i try to hang myself but when i’m halfway my survival instinct destroyed plan again.
Why i can’t end my life? There is nothing to do beside being slave of this bloody game. I love nature but humans destroyed it already. Why i’m still here?
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Because your natural instinct is to survive and it’s not the easiest to override. Or maybe there is some unfulfilled purpose in your life. Either way, hello. Not all Nature has been screwed up yet, but we’re getting there. I don’t know a lot about your country, but that sounds like it sucks.
I often think that the people on SP are the sane ones in this world. The smart, sensitive ones. The people always asking why and being appalled at the state of things. We shouldn’t kill ourselves.
survival instinct is a *****.
If someone would’nt have survival instinct, i’m sure he would have laugh to us.
What about alcohol? Do you think it would make easier? Because if i die, i know i will be better than this. I don’t believe gods, so i won’t see some angry gods either.
Yes you could try alcohol but you would have to drink very much (strong drink like vodka) in a short amount of time, so you don’t have the chance to recover. So your liver and other organs cannot cope with so much quantity in such a small amount of time.. Do not take a sip, then wait, then take another sip. Not like that. Drink like you drink water when you are thirsty. 🙂 And, it is not one hundred percent sure you will die. If all goes according to my calculations, and your hopes, you should, at some point, slip into a state of coma, let’s call it sleep then you won’t know anything after that. Then after a while in that coma you’ll die – completely. And you’ll open your eyes and see another world – better, not bitter like this one. This is a decision you yourself must make. I know you have good reasons. I know. See you again..in my dreams. Yes friend, humans destroy everything. They rape or destroy all that is beautiful. Everything that is good. Yes, you will be better. Sometimes I wish I died when younger in an accident or had the resources and courage to kill myself. Who knows, maybe one day real soon, my time will come too. Because I wouldn’t be sorry if I died today. I lived long enough. I laughed, I cried. Yada yada yada..insert more coins for script.
Sorry for the comment above. Don’t think I want you to die. So..you asked if it would be possible. Yes, it works. Because from what I know people have died from that. What kind of question is that? You don’t know that you can die from that? Let’s take a close look together at what the Doctors say (assholes, always want more money)
“Ethanol, also commonly called ethyl alcohol, drinking alcohol, or simply alcohol is the principal type of alcohol found in alcoholic beverages, produced by the fermentation of sugars by yeasts. It is a neurotoxic psychoactive drug and one of the oldest recreational drugs used by humans. It can cause alcohol intoxication when consumed in sufficient quantity.
Ethanol is a volatile, flammable, colorless liquid with a slight chemical odor. It is used as an antiseptic, a solvent, a fuel, and, due to its low freezing point, the active fluid in post-mercury thermometers. Its structural formula, CH3CH2OH, is oftenabbreviated as C2H5OH, C2H6O or EtOH.
Alcohol is metabolized by a normal liver at the rate of about 50 ml (1.7 US fl oz) of spirits (roughly a typical drink-size serving of beer, wine, or spirits) every 90 minutes.
Ethanol is metabolised to acetaldehyde by alcohol dehydrogenase (ADH), which is found in many tissues, including the gastric mucosa. Acetaldehyde is metabolised to acetate by acetaldehyde dehydrogenase (ALDH), which is found predominantly in liver mitochondria. Acetate is used by the muscle cells to produce acetyl-CoA using the enzyme acetyl-CoA synthetase, and the acetyl-CoA is then used in the citric acid cycle. It takes roughly 90 minutes for a healthy liver to metabolize a single ounce, approximately one hour per standard unit.
Ethanol’s acute effects are due largely to its nature as a central nervous system depressant, and are dependent on blood alcohol concentrations:
20–79 mg/dL – Impaired coordination and euphoria
80–199 mg/dL – Binge drinking: Ataxia, poor judgement, labile mood. The National Institute on Alcohol Abuse and Alcoholism (NIAAA) defines the term “binge drinking” as a pattern of drinking that brings a person’s blood alcohol concentration (BAC) to 0.08 g/dL or above.
200–299 mg/dL – Marked ataxia, slurred speech, poor judgement, labile mood, nausea and vomiting
300–399 mg/dL – Stage 1 anaesthesia, memory lapse, labile mood
400+ mg/dL – Respiratory failure, coma. – BINGO!
As drinking increases, people become sleepy, or fall into a stupor. After a very high level of consumption, the respiratory system becomes depressed and the person will stop breathing. Comatose patients may aspirate their vomit – THIS IS NASTY – (resulting in vomitus in the lungs, which may cause “drowning” and later pneumonia if survived).
Sorry if i didn’t tell right. I just asked if alcohol would help when hanging myself. I don’t wanna drown in my vomit. 🙂
dude…i wish i had the answer…
The problem is that people don’t realize Islam is much worse than Nazism. They treat it like it’s literally some innocent child that needs protection when in reality Islam is the most violent, destructive, dangerous, evil ideology in human history.
If we had a large muslim population here (say they were majorities), the same thing would be happening to us right now. People need to get educated and work to destroy this evil death cult-assuming defending freedom and one’s way of life matters to them.
It’s wrong to hate others, but it is right to hate an ideology that hates (and seeks to rape, kill, destroy) others.
In your case I’d recommend moving to any free nation that will take you. Or you could join the anti-Islamic movement in Turkey. 50% of Turks are Atheists (like myself)-they defeated Islam before under Ataturk, perhaps you guys should follow in his footsteps. Additionally you’ll probably need to get armed and go to war against these religious fascists-that’s the one way you will win.
fyi I’m atheist/not turkish.
%50 is not true, maybe %5.
Umut,
i hate your story! wish i could help, i hope some how you can get out!! and come to USA.
Nature…. is the answer.
Do what you like.