My first time taking it was really recently. DAMN THAT STUFF IS AWESOME! Sure, it has fucked up side effects, but those are things for people who want to live to worry about, not me. Still suicidal, but at least now I see things the way they are:
- I am meant to die as a lone wolf
- I’ve tried acting ”normal” for far too long, and it’s time to be myself
- I’m aggressive by nature. Spent far too much time pacify myself.
- Suicide is the only happy ending I will be able to get, and I do not fear death anymore
- Society is nothing but a bunch of half-retarded sheep following whatever the fuck is trendy
- I do not belong in this world
Started acting like myself completely. Fuck your ”socially accepted behavior”. I gave up trying to achieve something, because I’m going to be dead soon anyway. All I want to do right now is get high and mutilate myself in the worst ways possible and walk around the next day to show my scar-covered body.
Death, I am not afraid anymore. Sorry for keeping you waiting for so long.
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Hehehe @ half retarded sheep. That is the first time I have laughed today.
Don’t mutilate yourself. Why take it out on yourself? It’s not you, it’s them.
Got into a fight and spent a night at the police station. They also took some of my blood for testing and found the stuff in it.
”Do you need help quitting?”
Are you kidding me? I just fuckin’ started!
Lol. Well I googled it but I don’t much fancy getting all aggressive and possibly eating people. Maybe it’s just what I need. I dunno.
I’ve been where you are. Furious.
I used to care about the consequences of taking such things, but not anymore. I even tried to order some research chemicals from the UK, but they don’t take credit cards from the US. So I found something else. I just don’t care anymore at this point. I’ll do almost anything to make myself feel good and take the mental pain away. My life is already over. I just know it.