I wish you strength and courage. What a life changing ordeal. Hopefully you will feel reborn with an amazing sense of purpose when you come through the other side of it. Stay strong, be brave.
Thank you. I’m used to very painful conditions. I’m not a hypochondriac, i just literally have one of the worst genetic codes on the planet, and it makes me look like a hypochondriac.
What sucks is finally getting what you wamt and then realizing that you don’t really want it. I feel like i am an insult to everyone here.
You are absolutely the right kind of crazy to be here whiskered, last I checked there wasn’t a crazy admission fee, nor was anyone keeping score on if you really want to kill yourself. There is something oddly comforting that you have decided that you want to live after all. Death staring you in the face and you say…ohhhhh wait a minute. You mean DEATH? The kind I didn’t choose by my own hand. Well wait a second here, now I don’t have control over that, nope don’t want that.
Yes you are just the right amount of batshit crazy.
Well, it happens a lot that when a suicidal person is facing death they have some kind of realisation that they don’t want to or aren’t ready to die. I did. It happens a lot. I don’t feel bad about it or ashamed to admit it. In fact, I take vitamins which is ludicrous when you think about it.
If you were dying, nobody on here would be applauding. You have nothing to prove.
Do get that checked whenever you can, the soonest the better. There’s nothing with being suicidal but not wanting to die, usually it’s more a situation of “i want to change this situation or i’d rather die, and i can’t” more than really wanting to die. So like bruiseviolet said above, you have nothing to prove, and no one here will judge you.
I just read that post and I laughed so hard. Which hurt, a lot. But it was worth it, lol. Don’t feel bad about being an ignorant Texan, I live in Virginny and here’s redneck country, so I understand. I even have to kinda mask my accent, or else everyone’ll think I’m some stupid hick and no one will hire me. (And it doesn’t help that I’m a Bible-thumper.) But I love this place all the same.
And thanks, bruiseviolet. When you put it in these words it all seems so obvious. And lol, I take vitamins too. I guess it’s because I either want to be dead or alive. Not kinda dead, or kinda alive, which is what sickness is I guess. Just one or the either. I wanna be as healthy as possible until the might-happen-but-also-might-not-happen day when I empty my abdominopelvic cavity with a knife.
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I wish you strength and courage. What a life changing ordeal. Hopefully you will feel reborn with an amazing sense of purpose when you come through the other side of it. Stay strong, be brave.
Thank you. I’m used to very painful conditions. I’m not a hypochondriac, i just literally have one of the worst genetic codes on the planet, and it makes me look like a hypochondriac.
What sucks is finally getting what you wamt and then realizing that you don’t really want it. I feel like i am an insult to everyone here.
You are absolutely the right kind of crazy to be here whiskered, last I checked there wasn’t a crazy admission fee, nor was anyone keeping score on if you really want to kill yourself. There is something oddly comforting that you have decided that you want to live after all. Death staring you in the face and you say…ohhhhh wait a minute. You mean DEATH? The kind I didn’t choose by my own hand. Well wait a second here, now I don’t have control over that, nope don’t want that.
Yes you are just the right amount of batshit crazy.
Well, it happens a lot that when a suicidal person is facing death they have some kind of realisation that they don’t want to or aren’t ready to die. I did. It happens a lot. I don’t feel bad about it or ashamed to admit it. In fact, I take vitamins which is ludicrous when you think about it.
If you were dying, nobody on here would be applauding. You have nothing to prove.
Do get that checked whenever you can, the soonest the better. There’s nothing with being suicidal but not wanting to die, usually it’s more a situation of “i want to change this situation or i’d rather die, and i can’t” more than really wanting to die. So like bruiseviolet said above, you have nothing to prove, and no one here will judge you.
I will try to get it checked. It is getting really bad tonight. And thank you for the reassurances.
Thanks for the laugh, Hazy. I needed that.
My comments are screwed up. Please forgive their random placement.
At least you didn’t ask someone from Iowa where Lowan is. So yeah I forgive the random placement.
And I meant it, you are just the right kind of batshit crazy for me.
I just read that post and I laughed so hard. Which hurt, a lot. But it was worth it, lol. Don’t feel bad about being an ignorant Texan, I live in Virginny and here’s redneck country, so I understand. I even have to kinda mask my accent, or else everyone’ll think I’m some stupid hick and no one will hire me. (And it doesn’t help that I’m a Bible-thumper.) But I love this place all the same.
Thank you. I definitely don’t hear that often. 🙂
And thanks, bruiseviolet. When you put it in these words it all seems so obvious. And lol, I take vitamins too. I guess it’s because I either want to be dead or alive. Not kinda dead, or kinda alive, which is what sickness is I guess. Just one or the either. I wanna be as healthy as possible until the might-happen-but-also-might-not-happen day when I empty my abdominopelvic cavity with a knife.