im sorry that today is your last day on earth, i should probably try to give you reasons to stay but I can’t and im sorry again. I hope you find reasons to stay but if you don’t i hope you find all the peace and happiness when you move on. But do try to think of reasons to stay today.
It’s not my place to tell you not to, but you’d be missing out on a lot of my terrible jokes if you go through with it. I wish you the best with whatever you decide, but you’ve got an army of supporters here for you if you change your mind.
I really don’t think you should do anything right now. You say you are planning to do it after work which tells me a lot about you. You feel life is so bad that you want to die but you still have so much respect and consideration for others and for the position you have at work, that you don’t want to let anyone down by missing your shift. This shows what a decent, respectful person you are and that you haven’t given up on life totally. You obviously still hold out some hope for things to improve and I simply ask that you wait a few days at least.
You have made the effort to see a Doctor and now you can work with this Doctor and maybe the mental health people to try and improve things. At least talk to the mental health people before you make any final decisions. I hope you feel better soon.
SORRY MIKE MENTAL HEALTH PEOPLE WILL GET OR GIVE HIM MEDICATION OR PUT YOU AWAY IF THEY THINK HE IS A DANGER TO HIMSELF I KNOW THAT’S WHY I WON’T TELL ANYONE HOW BADDLY I FEEL ALL I DO IS PRETEND I’M OK EXCEPT FOR WHEN I AM ALONE LIKE NOW SICK, SICK
I guess it depends what country you are in. I’ve never experienced that in Australia. I’ve been stitched up numerous times and been taken by Police to a Psych hospital but when I tell them I feel more at risk being around people in a hospital, they just send me home.
The Police just told me not to self harm or attempt suicide out in public where I would upset people if they saw me. They told me to do it in the privacy of my own home so I wouldn’t freak anyone out.
Each time the Emergency Doctors get the Mental Health Team to see me they just give me a brochure for a men’s support group and tell me to get my own Doctor to write a referral to a Psychiatrist.
Good morning princess. I want to say please don’t do this stay here but I’m thinking that my saying that is selfish. I don’t want you to do this because it will hurt me. I’ll miss you and that will hurt quit a bit.
So I won’t say don’t do this. What I will say is that right up until you take your last breath you can bail and chose living. Call the lawyer like you were thinking of, find more fulfilling work. Change other people’s lives. You have changed mine just by knowing you. Your courage in the face of a disability that is extremely painful.
I hope I get to see you here tomorrow. I will be looking forward to seeing you tomorrow.
Is death truely what you believe to be God’s plan for you? I am hearing that God is calling you to find peace in your life but could that not mean for you to find the path to peace while in your life on earth through the pain. Communicating with you by forum has felt limiting for me as I am used to being able to listen and be present with someone through the type of long conversation that I would truely regret for you not to have the oppertunity to have in your life now. With each post, I sense the presence of deeper unaddressed emotional pain that truely feels as if it is weighing on you but that you have not yet gained the awareness of it to allow you to begin to resolve it. You have struggled for so long but does this not mean that you could not find healing in an atmosphere that is not currently in your awareness today? What if you have been guided by something greater to this community and towards beginning to reach out. Healing may still seem out of reach for you, but you have begun the process. I believe that you have more to give to this world and I am praying that God grants you the strength to overcome this pain.
guys you are all so amazing. I don’t know what God wants, the feeling of suicide is so strong it feels right. I haven’t got the equipment yet, but i need to do this. the pain in my life is too much to bear
Whether you do it or not i do hope you find the peace you are looking for, either in life on death, but do give yourself the proper time to get the equipment, get it ready, do a test run (depending on what you chose) and then, finally deciding if you’ll go through with it or not. Saying this because “after work” sounds like you’ll have to do anything in a rush and that’s no good. You really don’t want to rush stuff like this and risk ending up worse than now.
i said after work so i wasn’t letting them down, and it would have been obvious. I understand it needs planning as i don’t want people to be suspicious
I cannot know God’s plan for you the same way that I cannot know his plan for me but I cannot doubt that overwhelming pain can be part of that plan for us dispite it being so hard to see while living through it. All I can do is reflect back the image of the person growing and hope they might as well see what God is doing in their life. You have had your support pulled from beneath you and you have quickly begun to reach for something better in your life, but you are in pain. I know how emotional pain will increase the perception of physical pain. I hope you will make the next step beyond what you have begun here and reach out to someone that can help you to reach deeper within yourself. I know their are others at your church and you had felt helped by the PAPYRUS 0800 068 41 41 line in past. I hope that someone is given the chance to do that work in your life.
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im sorry that today is your last day on earth, i should probably try to give you reasons to stay but I can’t and im sorry again. I hope you find reasons to stay but if you don’t i hope you find all the peace and happiness when you move on. But do try to think of reasons to stay today.
Peace and love.
It’s not my place to tell you not to, but you’d be missing out on a lot of my terrible jokes if you go through with it. I wish you the best with whatever you decide, but you’ve got an army of supporters here for you if you change your mind.
I really don’t think you should do anything right now. You say you are planning to do it after work which tells me a lot about you. You feel life is so bad that you want to die but you still have so much respect and consideration for others and for the position you have at work, that you don’t want to let anyone down by missing your shift. This shows what a decent, respectful person you are and that you haven’t given up on life totally. You obviously still hold out some hope for things to improve and I simply ask that you wait a few days at least.
You have made the effort to see a Doctor and now you can work with this Doctor and maybe the mental health people to try and improve things. At least talk to the mental health people before you make any final decisions. I hope you feel better soon.
SORRY MIKE MENTAL HEALTH PEOPLE WILL GET OR GIVE HIM MEDICATION OR PUT YOU AWAY IF THEY THINK HE IS A DANGER TO HIMSELF I KNOW THAT’S WHY I WON’T TELL ANYONE HOW BADDLY I FEEL ALL I DO IS PRETEND I’M OK EXCEPT FOR WHEN I AM ALONE LIKE NOW SICK, SICK
I guess it depends what country you are in. I’ve never experienced that in Australia. I’ve been stitched up numerous times and been taken by Police to a Psych hospital but when I tell them I feel more at risk being around people in a hospital, they just send me home.
The Police just told me not to self harm or attempt suicide out in public where I would upset people if they saw me. They told me to do it in the privacy of my own home so I wouldn’t freak anyone out.
Each time the Emergency Doctors get the Mental Health Team to see me they just give me a brochure for a men’s support group and tell me to get my own Doctor to write a referral to a Psychiatrist.
Good morning princess. I want to say please don’t do this stay here but I’m thinking that my saying that is selfish. I don’t want you to do this because it will hurt me. I’ll miss you and that will hurt quit a bit.
So I won’t say don’t do this. What I will say is that right up until you take your last breath you can bail and chose living. Call the lawyer like you were thinking of, find more fulfilling work. Change other people’s lives. You have changed mine just by knowing you. Your courage in the face of a disability that is extremely painful.
I hope I get to see you here tomorrow. I will be looking forward to seeing you tomorrow.
Is death truely what you believe to be God’s plan for you? I am hearing that God is calling you to find peace in your life but could that not mean for you to find the path to peace while in your life on earth through the pain. Communicating with you by forum has felt limiting for me as I am used to being able to listen and be present with someone through the type of long conversation that I would truely regret for you not to have the oppertunity to have in your life now. With each post, I sense the presence of deeper unaddressed emotional pain that truely feels as if it is weighing on you but that you have not yet gained the awareness of it to allow you to begin to resolve it. You have struggled for so long but does this not mean that you could not find healing in an atmosphere that is not currently in your awareness today? What if you have been guided by something greater to this community and towards beginning to reach out. Healing may still seem out of reach for you, but you have begun the process. I believe that you have more to give to this world and I am praying that God grants you the strength to overcome this pain.
You worded that so much better than I did. Princess it’s with Lev. Think this through more.
Auto correct thy name is frustration!!!! *I’m
I wish today is the day. Where u will be free from all your worries & depression amd everything else.. which makes you think to commit suicide.
Today you will be strong. Today you will have the courage to get over your depression. Today you will choose life over death.
You too my friend.
guys you are all so amazing. I don’t know what God wants, the feeling of suicide is so strong it feels right. I haven’t got the equipment yet, but i need to do this. the pain in my life is too much to bear
Whether you do it or not i do hope you find the peace you are looking for, either in life on death, but do give yourself the proper time to get the equipment, get it ready, do a test run (depending on what you chose) and then, finally deciding if you’ll go through with it or not. Saying this because “after work” sounds like you’ll have to do anything in a rush and that’s no good. You really don’t want to rush stuff like this and risk ending up worse than now.
i said after work so i wasn’t letting them down, and it would have been obvious. I understand it needs planning as i don’t want people to be suspicious
I cannot know God’s plan for you the same way that I cannot know his plan for me but I cannot doubt that overwhelming pain can be part of that plan for us dispite it being so hard to see while living through it. All I can do is reflect back the image of the person growing and hope they might as well see what God is doing in their life. You have had your support pulled from beneath you and you have quickly begun to reach for something better in your life, but you are in pain. I know how emotional pain will increase the perception of physical pain. I hope you will make the next step beyond what you have begun here and reach out to someone that can help you to reach deeper within yourself. I know their are others at your church and you had felt helped by the PAPYRUS 0800 068 41 41 line in past. I hope that someone is given the chance to do that work in your life.
how can i continue in life like this
A day, an hour, or even a moment at a time. I will be among those here with you.
my life is truly over, I haven’t got all the equipment yet, but, i actually feel its from God to die
How are you feeling?
I feel dreadful, truly low, I will stay until i can gather the necessary parts to do the job and plan it properly. would you like to email?
Yes, absolutely, I’m thinking chat as well. I’m not clear on how to exchange emails on here.
Lev1314@Yahoo.com
Would you consider staying with us one more day, I really would like to talk to you more.
And sorry if that wasn’t phrased clearly, I meant to ask how it felt to feel that it is God’s intention for you to die.
it feels odd, not how i imagined my life, but if this iis truly from God, then i must carry it out
One more day? I like that idea.
I’m glad you’re still writing.