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It’s scary to feel lost and out of control. It’s like you’re literally trying to hold on to your sanity. It’s hard, but you can hang on. I don’t know about you, but eventually my mood will go back to feeling fine and “as if nothing can bring me down” like you said. That’s the best feeling! That’s when I’m social and go out and have fun.

Then there are times I feel paranoid, insecure, scared and unsure of myself. It’s like I go from feeling like I can conquer the world to feeling like a scared little child who needs to hide and be taken care of. That’s the scariest feeling to me. When I feel like I’m so mentally weak and exposed to the wolves. Those wolves can feel like family members or life in general.

It just sucks when you’re not sure how you’ll feel from one moment to the next. That’s why I can’t maintain contact with people really. I disappear when I feel low.

Have you ever tried therapy? It can help to talk things out. I haven’t been in weeks and some of that is because of the holidays so that’s why I haven’t felt grounded.