I am a teenager
I get honor roll and am stressed with my grades if i get lower than a A-
Since a year or two ago i wasnt able to feel happy for more than an hour
My feelings for most are faked including my boyfriend because I don’t want to hurt anyone
I want to forget everything a.d start a new life
I want to live in a different world
I want to die, but i cant bring myself to it
I dont want to tell my parent because their comforting only works for a minute or two
Im easily angered, easily stressed, impasient, and i procrastinate often
I find that i hate most of the things i used to like
I have small hallucinations
I find that most of my “friends” betray me one way or another or just slipp away from me
Please i need advice, what do i do? I feel like i should die and i want to kill myself but i cant bring myself to do it
Thank you if you actually read though this
Im sorry for wasting your time with this long piece of shit
3 comments
This is almost exactly like how I feel, I’m a teenager and most of those things I can relate too. I’m sorry I can’t help because I don’t know what to do either, I’m like totally stumped, I just want to leave everything.
I wish I had an easy answer for you but I don’t. Life is hard. Especially when you are young and partially dependent on others to survive. I say. Try to work on yourself. Try to read some self help books and see if that brings you relief. I say this because that kind of thing has helped me a lot. When I was young like yourself. I didn’t have much coping skills. I learned how to cope with things like anxiety and depression and lack of patience buy reading books. You’d be surprised what you can learn….and if you put it into practice you can improve yourself. You also need to believe that things can get better for yourself if you try because they can. Whatever issues you are facing now wont be there forever. Try to find something positive to get involved with that brings you happiness…. and in doing those things you might meet people you have a common bond with. Something like Sports, music, art, theater, a hobby or crafts or something. If you find something you like to do that will fill your time with something positive and can bring you some relief. Also think about looking into spiritual life. Like maybe going to Church or belief in God or something like that. Those things help a lot of people including me.
Hang in there. Take things one step at a time. One day at a time. And remember your past does not equal your future. Also think about something you could do to help others out.. that could give you a good feeling and a sense of purpose in life. Maybe volunteer to help out others or get a job where you help others out. I did that for a long time in life and it made a world of difference to me. I got a job helping out people with mental disabilities and it gave me a sense of purpose and also I learned a lot of good life lessons with that job like…. how to appreciate what I have. I wish you the best of luck.
Sounds like your pushing yourself for the sake of those that are around you, and that’s pretty much wearing you out (might be wrong tho). The problem is that by playing this role you might not be harming others, but you’re clearly damaging yourself. Talk to your parents, they might actually be able to help you, or look for help for all of you. The age you’re in is not easy, many things and situations change, and how we perceive them too.
I know it’s not much of a help, but really, find help before considering killing yourself. Better to exhaust all options first. I do hope things get better for you.