i’m probably on the edge of a breakup and i’m really scared. i’m trying so hard to be unselfish – no cutting and no starving myself. i’m taking care of myself for the sake of others, if not for myself.
some bad stuff happened and my girlfriend and i hadn’t talked in several days (we’re long distance), but i was still trying to be positive about our relationship. then yesterday i got some really angry messages. last night i ordered some of her favorite kind of chips, which have been discontinued, for $36. i keep wondering whether she will still be my girlfriend by the time the chips show up at her door. am i fucking crazy? i’m about to lose the love of my life and i’m sending her potato chips.
i’m really fucking scared. i’m scared for our relationship, and i’m scared about what’s going to happen to me if i lose her. i don’t want to kill myself but i don’t want to live without her. i’m afraid i have to let her go. i have hurt her so much and we have spent months trying to make this relationship good and healthy, but it’s not working. i love her. maybe i need to make the unselfish choice for once in my life and let her move on without me. but god i’m scared.
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If it’s long distance and you know she’s seeing your messages but deliberately ignores you then you need to make her realize she can’t just ignore you like that a relationship that’s long distance can be more fragile but you’re still a person and you deserve her attention or at least make her realize she has to treat you fairly and tell you what’s wrong and yes you can live without her I used to think I couldn’t live without someone before and then they left you have to constantly think there was a time before her there will be a time after her if there has to be you’re strong enough to stand alone and you do NOT DESERVE the anxiety she is putting you through I’ve had long distance relationships I know you are probably anxious over this and you don’t deserve it she’s just making you feel like you do
thank you so much for your support. but i really do deserve all the bad i get. i am the one who ruined our relationship and hurt her, so she’s not being unfair. it turns my stomach to hear that i deserve better because really i don’t. but thank you for your response. i feel so alone right now and it really helps.
We’re alike I’ve fucked up no matter what you did you don’t deserve the anxieties this is giving you no matter what you did no matter how bad you fucked up YOU’RE HUMAN you don’t deserve this if you intend on trying to make it better than there NEEDS TO BE effort from her part if she isn’t communicating or putting in effort you DO deserve better
I don’t have a lot of answer about what you are going through except to say I read your post and truly feel for you. Plus I would totally be thrilled to death if someone thought enough to send my my favorite chips that had been discontinued.
I’m sorry you’re hurting and scared. Don’t think you can’t live without her. I know it feels that way, but it’s not true. It happens just about every time I’m in a relationship, but a person kind of becomes your world and it’s like you forgot you actually had a life before that person came along. It’s dangerous to start thinking you can’t live without someone because from what I’ve experienced, relationships are only temporary. You think it will last forever, but it doesn’t so you have to be prepared to be without that person.
I remember the night it was over with my ex. It felt like the ground had been pulled from underneath my feet. It felt like my entire world was crashing down. Maybe I had convinced myself the relationship would never end no matter what, but it did. Anyway, you can live without her. I know it’s hard to think differently. And you deserve better than long distance. A relationship is hard enough when you’re near eachother.