I really hate myself

Since “stone” is an unfamiliar reference for me, I had to google a conversion chart.
If the chart is right, it says 14 stone is 196 lb, and 10 stone is 140 lb.

metric-conversions.org/weight/stones-to-pounds.htm

I wish I had advice to give!
All I can say is that a lot of others (including myself) are also feeling empty, wondering how to fill the void.

I daydream a LOT, I write music, I spend buttloads of time on the Internet, I write letters, I read, I love being in the symphony, I drink caffeine like it was a magic elixir sometimes…
And yeah, sometimes there’s still a big black pit anyway.
I like to blame it on the fact that I have no significant-other, but my second theory is that EVERYONE has a void somewhere in their core, and maybe that’s just the way we are… maybe our purpose is just to try to make other’s lives more pleasant by helping to shrink the void a little.

I dunno.

There are probably a lot of books written about that subject, and I’m willing to bet that probably 99% of them are total crap. 😉