ok before anyone thinks I’m trying to off myself again, I mean let myself not get stuff done.
I have exams in 3 days and have done quite literally nothing to even begin preparing for them. I need to study and get organized in order to be get the grades I need. I didn’t do anything yesterday after I tried to kill myself but it didn’t work (I’m physically fine just a little inconvenienced) and I didn’t do anything after classes today either. Thinking about how much I need to do and how I have done nothing is reinforcing all the reasons I want to off myself to begin with and it’s making me feel worse and yet I STILL get no work done. anyway this evening I decided to just say “f*** it” again and I watched a movie and ate and feel moderately okay, unless I think about what a fricking lazy-ass I am and how much I deserve to die for it.
so my question is, can I let myself do the bare minimum the next few days even though the ONLY benefit is me feeling less like I want to die, but the potential consequences are really bad for my grades and I have no way of explaining that to anyone?
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You can, but it’s likely going to make things worse in the long run. You might want to study, even if it’s the bare minimum to get you a decent grade. I don’t know what you have to study or your age but 3 days to get decent grades without having to study like crazy… sounds like a doable thing.