My ex-boyfriend and I broke up about a month ago. I’ve been pretty depressed and anxious ever since. And my mom just found out I failed 3 of my classes last tri, and she said she’s gonna take my phone and car away if I don’t get better grades. That really worries me because my music is on my phone and I rely on my music daily. Everything’s getting a lot harder to deal with. If I see him in the cafeteria at school, I get sick to my stomach and I usually don’t end up eating very much, if at all. I feel like a failure. A disappointment. A mistake. I feel like the only thing I’m good at is letting people down. I don’t know why they have such high expectations of stupid little me. I’ve never cut, but I’m getting so damn close. I want to reach out to friends, but I’m really worried that they’ll look at me differently. I guess that’s why I’m here. I’m looking for support/help.
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HI musicsavesme: I’ve stood in your shoes in a school cafeteria feeling exactly the same. I got through it, albeit poorly, by just pushing forward. It isn’t too late to salvage your grades. Since music is freedom of a sorts for you, then work towards keeping your music. I’m sorry your mother is taking this route in lieu of sitting with you and help you work through this, but unfortunately she doesn’t have an owners manual for you.
Giiiirl… I’m a lot older than you and I can still relate to the break up thing. It doesn’t feel good no matter how old you are. Sometimes I just can’t stop the feeling of just wanting to die because of my heartache. I’m sorry you’re going through a lot. You’re not alone here.
I’m really sorry about your ex, that sucks. whatever the reason is for breaking up, I seriously doubt it was all your fault or that you only let people down, even though it feels like that.
also please don’t start cutting, it’s really hard to stop and I have to worry constantly about hiding scars. whatever is driving you to this believe me that cutting will only make it harder in the long run.