I am alive because of you

Hello, it has been 2 years since the last time I’ve been on here. Things have changed. I often find myself wondering if the same people who were here when i first started are still alive or if their lives have gotten better. I hope so. I hope that they’re enjoying life as much as they can like i am.

I want to be honest, the first time i came across this place i was  around 13-14 years old and googling suicide methods. Instead of finding ways to end my life this place helped me find ways to cope and keep on living. I am 18 years old and in my first year of college, a place i never thought i’d ever live long enough to attend. I am grateful for this place because without this, without the people here who would offer advice and understanding i most likely wouldn’t have been able to cope with my crippling depression.

Of course i am not completely healed, i still have anxiety, i still experience panic attacks and depression but i have developed healthier ways of coping other than lashing out at my own skin. Whenever i feel anxious or depressed i have made it a habit to either draw or journal. If i ever find that the noise in my head is getting too loud i put on some headphones and blast music as loud as i can. My battle may not be over but my army has become stronger. I am stronger.

I am alive because of this place and i want to repay my gratitude by offering a helping hand. If you ever want to speak to someone whether it be because you are feeling lonely, you want to show me a photo of your pet, you want to rant about how shit these elections were or you need a distraction i want you to know that you can contact me.

My email: animecat9@aol.com

My Kik: @ItsCornie