As I just sit here and dawn on what I have been going threw I could go on for years it is literally the worst I went from having everything I wanted to nothing! My gamut use to be so close I felt like my mom nd stepdad slowly deteriorated that. My real dad died before I was born I feel like my siblings bound together closer because they seen him and I haven’t! Yes I was looking at my step dad as my real dad but hey that was the only dad I knew. My mom is evil all she does is scream and yell and bck then i wuld just sit around and cry but I’m fed up I cry on my own time but she is not going to sit there and downgrade me like I’m nothing she is not going to do it nOr is her husband I can nOT do it! I won’t stand for it.my brother and sisters went throw the same thing I’m experiencing right now,that’s why they”re not around.it’s just me and my little brother I feel like it’s my time to go now. My house brned down in February it tore me into pieces we lost everything.I didn’t knw what to do I tried to go bck to school pick up where I left off I culdnt do it.me and my mom got into a argument which led me to attempt suicide I was then hospitalized for it! My mom sent me to a mental hospitol I hated her for it kept telling myself it was the right thing to do! Pssh my mom is a piece of work and a compulsive liar,all she does is tell you what sounds good nd does the complete opposite.she turns people against me like I’m he bad person in reality se is.he treats me like crap.when she”s mad so is her husband for no reason .as much as I deal with.I am now at the end.I can’t deal with then anymore.nor do I want to I’m just done
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I know it’s hard, but you can find help. You can enjoy life.
Hi my dad died before i was born. I’ve been googling about this because my life feeling awful at the moment. Older siblings moved out and I have an incurable non infectious immunological disease! I think subconsciously I am acting out a lot. I have a lot of problems which can probably be cured by talking to a therapist but I just don’t want to you know? Maybe it’s the dad died before we were born thing that impacts us in some way you get me!? Anyway I’m only in early 20s myself so hey you got a friend here and don’t do anything like that. We will survive. This is the first time I have ever responded on a forum/chat thing like this. I hope you are ok and don’t do anything of the sort (ie suicide) trust me everything turns out grooooovvvyyyy.
hey please respond so i know your ok. im very ocd like this.
also i get the older siblings thing like they knew who dad was so have that little connection thing that I am seperate from in some way. but then i think gosh i am lucky in another way because i didnt have the pain of them loosing dad. he just wasnt there for me, we didnt speak much about it and that was cool. for me its almost like theres this unknown void. mum never remarried but hey that in itself has had an impact in my functioning in life im sure but i just don’t realise it. but im happy just the way it is. i don’t know about how it is with the step dad thing but i ope that turns out ok. much love x
much love? i sound like terry tibbs off phone jacker wat an idiot i am. hey sorry don’t mean to be like this. i am going on a crazy one myself now please don’t do anything silly yea mate.. just be cool.
peace!
and hey theres loads of stuff in life. i feel like life is gonna get beta…
just be cool x
im still thinking about wat ive written cos you don’t seem real to me cos its on this forum thing if that makes sense. take everything i say with a pinch of salt so far cos without any feedback from yourself i feel like i am rambling at a blank wall!!! ps ill happily send you money if it makes you happy. just don’t do anything stupid ok!!! right ive gotta go man cos im getting a headache thinking. ps i am real myself and everything i have said is most definitely the truth. basically im just trying to find common ground with others who have had their dads die before they were born on google. came accross this and thought ok i can reach out to this person. we single parent children who didnt know their dads need to keep in touch. we are one in a million i am sure! ok ill check back soon. ope to hear from you matey. ok laters
one more thing. please speak to me on this soon ok bud. i ope your not a troll and your for real cos ive said a lot on this and won’t be happy if your a fake!
peace
oh and nice one will692 tru word i think i need to find help as well now!!! hope your well in the land of wherever in this world!
everyone just be cool!!!!
i hope i don’t get bad karma for all this now. lets all be safe and work things out.
i ope your ok
lifes good!
hey,i just wannah thank everyone who has commented on this. yes i am stll here and im ohkaee. im still going through a little bit of it but i have my therapist to talk to now. i moved back with my grandparents so im good((: