So I got help yesterday. I told my doctor about one
Recent suicide attempt. I LIED. I refused to tell her
about the other 10 times I had tried and didn’t mention
anorexia or my panic attacks.
My friend said if I fucked up my life while she was in Italy,she would never forgive me. She is coming back in 12 days and I’m still a suicidal freak. What to do?!?!?
I know what you might say-she’s not a real friend if she doesn’t stick by me? But it’s not like that. I’ve been this suicidal girl for about 8 months now And it gets tiring and she wants me to get better.
My most recent overdose was only because I wanted to end up in the hospital and get help. But that didn’t even happen. I kept it a secret and only told my counselor- and yes she told my mom. My mom punished me but she told me to tell the doctor. Anyways, I DO NOT WANT HELP.
Does this mean I’ll end up alone, and mentally insane?!
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I hate it when counselors tell parents!
Well…Counselors are legally obligated to tell someone if you’ve tried to kill yourself. However, there are better ways to get help then overdosing 🙂 If you don’t feel this doctor is helping you or you don’t trust them, perhaps you should find a different one. I am on my forth counselor and she’s fantastic.
Also, ‘insane’ is a legal term. It has nothing to do with mental illness. It merely says you can’t be held accountable for your actions. It’s kinda stupid but lawyers use it. Anyway, the point is that you aren’t insane. And it’s okay to be sad, it’s alright to want to be thin, and it’s okay to want to control your situation when you feel powerless. However, it is *not* okay to starve yourself, and it is not okay to try to kill yourself to get help…that’s kinda counterproductive, don’t you think?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSN2oCNkJiI
You might want to check that link out. It’s about eating disorders. It’s very helpful. I love this girl, I watch her videos all the time, she’s amazing. She wrote a book, too, which I haven’t read yet, but plan on reading. Anyway, you should check that video out.
Things will get better…but only if you try. and if you are posting here, chances are you do want help 🙂 Take care ♥♥
You are perfect just the way you are~
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBqkpBRu9SI&feature=related
This song gets me through lots
Is it Adele? CAuse she’s the only person I’d ever listen to…