Sounds like a good idea?
I go to cheap motel and drink a glass of drano.
I never wanted this. I should have had a career and kids, but no. The world doesn’t want me. Maybe if I beg enough, I might get some table scraps or some peanuts. Dance monkey, dance.
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Hey how are you
Going to be 26 soon. I’m old.
I know how you feel about the table scraps. My life has only recently started gradually looking up after YEARS of torture. How old are you now?
How? I’m going to be 26 soon. We take those table scraps chew them up and spit them back at them. Fuck them. Try being a lowly pleasant for once, and stop pretending that they care.
Omg, how? It took YEARS of trying everything under the sun the get rid of my “curse”. And exsqueeze me but I’ll be turning 26 this Fall too. You’re not old. We’re GETTING older, but we’re not old. I know it can feel that way a lot.
I don’t have a career yet either, but kids? Really? In this day and age in the western world, most women are getting married closer to 30. The only time I’m thinking of kids at this stage in my life is how much I don’t want them especially now. You have lots of time for that stuff. You’ve still got plenty of eggs left. And your life and value as a woman is not defined on your career, husband, and children. Stop looking to society to validate you. Follow your own path. Children don’t all of a sudden snap you out of depression. They’ll just occupy your time so much that you will only have time to be depressed five minutes a day right upon having to wake up at 3 a.m to get them to stop crying. Even though your depression might potentially look up a bit, there’s also the real possibility of having post partum depression. The only certainty that having kids will give you is a reason you cannot kill yourself any longer. If that’s what you really want, a strong reason why you cannot kill yourself, then go ahead and have your first kid without a husband.
There was a murder case in the 1970’s where the victims were forced to drink drano. I don’t think you want to drink that.
There’s still time for a career and kids. Some people don’t start their careers until much later in life or change from career to career throughout their lifetime. There’s always a child who needs a home and technology has advanced where you can have children later in life. I don’t mean to give you some cheesy advice but when there’s a will there’s a way.
We just have to find will. It’s kind of like where’s Waldo?
Drano sounds better than this shitty life. I don’t want to be so old that I’ll be the child’s grandparent. I hear stories that it’s a bad idea. If I do survive this drano, I’ll be blind and have to eat with an IVF, which is great for weight loss, and I’m useless so what do I need eyesight for?
I understand and I know I cannot talk you out of any decision you wish to make because it is your decision. Hopefully things will change for the better and by age 30 you won’t have this on your mind. I surely hope time will makes things better, for all of us on this site.
Best wishes.
I can certainly relate. I will be 30 this fall. It has only recently been hitting me harder. When I was 18, I was no naive. I expected life to be so much easier.
I wish I had more than a few months to 30. Maybe I would take a few more chances. Maybe I could have been a better person.
Opportunities are so few for all of us. I wish I knew that when I was 18 or 21 or 25.
Yeah I want to shoot myself in a cheap motel but I have no money. I’m probably gonna get a gun and shoot myself in the desert somewhere where there is nobody around.
Oh, BlueDiamond, you little nipper.
I turned thirty about six weeks ago, and it was very disappointing — I hadn’t planned on making it past 30. But here I am, still suffering, 20+ years later…
But, four years is still a decent amount of time for things to change, but only if you want them to and actually put the work in even if you don’t particularly feel like it.
If you don’t want to change, well then enjoy more of the same for the next four years. 🙂
Nice advice.
Damn, I feel the same way. I’d be shocked if I made it out of my 20s. Truly, shocked.
Society pressures us, like we’re supposed to have our lives together by a certain age, and we’re supposed to do this and supposed to that. Yeah… I second what Bree9 said.
Hello there!
So, I am turning 34 this year, I am unwed and have no children or career I love. This is also the happiest I have ever been in my life.
I made a decision that every day I am alive is an opportunity to get another shot at creating the life I want. I cannot define success based on what the world or even modern western society says it is – I just have to find my happy place. When I turned 31 I beat my struggle with anxiety and fear, I learned how to long board, I got the hairstyle I always wanted, I learned to sew, started dancing and started eating well. I lost oodles of weight and feel amazing!! Still no man, child or career and I am as happy as a lark! I still have struggles in life and obstacles but I put my big girl panties on and fight until I overcome them.
Getting a husband and family won’t make you happy. There is nothing wrong with wanting a partner to share life with, but until that happens go out and live a beautiful life, find happiness, peace and all the magic that’s out there. That way when you find a husband and have children you can pour out all the amazingness that you are into their lives.
And if you don’t find a husband you will be too busy having a good time to even notice! 🙂