I am a 20 year old female, struggling through life and unsure what my future holds. I am currently in college and have been with my significant other for about two years. I have had two miscarriages and it’s been eating me alive inside. He does not understand the pain nor does he try to understand, and he is the only one who knows because I couldn’t bring myself to tell my family about it. I am so broken and have been suicidal/depressed since I was a young girl in elementary school. I am just at the point in life where I do not want to live any longer and I don’t want to be with anyone here on earth, even him when I love him with everything I have. I just have nothing left to offer, nothing left to give, and I just can’t see the good in things anymore. Growing up I had a very religious family, went to church every Sunday and went to every Church function there was, and although sometimes I’d find reassurance within the gospel, I always found myself still wishing I weren’t here. I’ve written out letters to all my loved ones time and time again, never blaming anyone nor making anyone feel bad, just explaining how badly i’ve been hurt all my life and the only way to stop it is to let myself be free..
I’d like to say goodbye.
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dont kill yourself, you are just starting your life. your boyfriend and your family will miss you. dont do it
We’re here to talk if you need someone to hear you out. I know how frustrating it can be to have a significant other who refuses to even bother to understand where you’re coming from.
My ex had a miscarriage once. It’s never easy to talk about… but if you need to, I’m here.