I find it bizarre how you’re considered weak for using alcohol as a means of fighting social anxiety and yet taking Xanax is encouraged. I think there’s something else at work here when you’re allowed to buy alcohol without a prescription but you can’t get Xanax without one. I know I have social-anxiety so why do i have to pay an extra amount of money in order to have some guy/lady verify that I do in fact have social anxiety before I can get that prescription? Something tells me that it has to do with milking patients wallets.
Oh and back to what’s socially frowned upon…..
I think it’s unfair for somebody to discourage me from consuming alcohol and tell me it’s weak when they eat nothing but fast food or they smoke weed or they play too many video games or they jack off to porn or they have anger issues so they punch walls.
I have to admit that my social anxiety is more crippling than my alcohol usage. Here’s another red pill for you; I was getting verbally bullied by some fat older lady at work yesterday because she saw how nice and shy I was. She picked up on that and used it against me. She started ridiculing me and poking fun at me….45 minutes later I come back to my work area and she starts doing it again but to her surprise, I’m not displaying any signs of embarrassment or discomfort anymore. She started talking about how everyone picks on me in a sarcastic way with a smile on her face in front of my other coworkers. I reply “ha….it’s because I’m so scrawny”. She looked shocked that I said that because she was expecting me to defend myself in an offended form. Instead, the spectators start laughing with me. She wanted to be the comedian but I stole the show from her. Her face went from sarcastic smirk to shit face syndrome in seconds. I can’t remember all the mean things she was saying but I just remember how immune I became to all her shit-talk. Eventually, she gave up and just stopped trying anymore. During my 45min break, I took 2 shots of Tanqueray to ease my nerves, particularly the ones in my face. This allowed me to react in a calm manner and have a facial expression that spoke “nice try but it doesn’t humiliate me”. It’s as if she was throwing bullets at me but I was the one arming my gun with those very same bullets and giving them back to her…..fully automatic.
People hate it when shy guys like me get alcohol in them because they love using us as punching bags. They wont tell you this so bluntly, however. They’ll tell you some shit like ‘alcohol is bad for you’…..to which i usually reply “no shit genius! did you just discover that? or did you really think I didn’t know that?” ….oh but the truth is more something like “I hate how now I can’t intimidate you to exercise my power over you anymore” and my inner voice is saying “I just got this cool new barrier where anything you try to intimidate me with gets blocked and so now you’re not able to exercise your dominance over me and now I can have a nice day.”
It’s like a cheat code that i wish I discovered sooner. It ain’t so bad that I drink on occasions like this. The way I see it is like this; I showed her today and even if I do come back sober tomorrow she’ll still remember how I laughed off all her sarcastic remarks and so she will think twice before trying that again. Similar to the two couples who first met at the bar a little buzzed. Call it a crutch or whatever but it WORKS just like a crutch works for cripples. I’d rather call my booze a ‘potion’ and my whole experience with it an ‘experiment’ where I can then conclude whether or not what people say about me actually matters. I concluded that this fat ***** can say some horrible things but it can be laughed off and I can still walk back into work sober and with a smile on my face. This was a fun experiment with an awesome conclusion.
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I´m also socially anxious. You are lucky man, alcohol never helped me with this. I feel no difference at all after 2 shots… Alcohol for me is always like I feel nothing at all and then I just instantly black out. Nothing in between. The only thing that works on me like this is cocaine. I dont do it often coz its expensive af and quality stuff is rare. I wish it was legal and cheap just like alcohol… It is not even as dangerous in my opinion (no hate on alcohol, if it helps you thats great but its a heavy substance harder than coke and thats facts and all these people that are sayin “I would never do drugs” while drinking like 8th shot are just funny). Its interesting, I have the exact opposite experience than you. People here are always glorifying alcohol and hating on other illegal “dangerous” substances. Its probably just a culture thing, after all I live in a country with the most alcohol consumed per person.
My true poison of choice is weed tho but it makes me even more anxious around people, I just smoke alone everyday and I love it…
Oh dude, I totally get what you’re saying. It’s silly how one can judge so harshly just because someone else’s poison isn’t the same as theirs. Like I said before, some people use other substances or do other things to get a quick release of dopamine. For some it’s eating big macs and twinkies after a rough day of work. For me it used to be playing video games then it changed to alcohol. Personally I don’t hate on others or ridicule others for what they use. I have a friend who prefers weed over smoking and we get along just fine. He smokes his blunts and I drink my 40oz’s and we have a good time. But yeah people who only drink alcohol and think it’s any different than other drugs are delusional. Many people don’t call it a drug but they need to remember that bootlegging was a thing in the past for a reason.
Xanax is only encouraged by people who want to make money for it. Personally, taking a xanax for me is as helpful as taking a placebo .. Nothing happens
Although the only reason I knew Seroquel wasn’t a placebo is because I gained 70 pounds in seven months. HA
Probably just as helpful as Cancer patients who take the 700,000$ a month pills and STILL DIE from Cancer.
“Hey, you’re still going to die, but how sweet would it be to market a fake cure and make SO MUCH money off of it, you know, before you actually die of Cancer.”
Worship Jesus because then Cancer won’t kill you!!
They’re just trying to make money off of the helpless
Agreed. I hope I can stay true to three ideals:
1.) Stay off prescription drugs entirely for the rest of my life. It has been at least twenty years so far.
2.) Pay only cash for western medicine. Since there is precious little of it left over every month, I don’t see any western medicine in my future to speak of. My last visit to a doctors office was 6 years ago I think.
3.) If I can’t afford the medical expenses to live or the medical expenses and live, then I can’t live. AS the old saying goes: “It I can’t afford it, I don’t need it!” Bilking the taxpayers (via the unscrupulous healthcare system) is not my idea of affording it either.