As I’ve said, the world already sucks, but now it sucks even more. No, definitely not a world I want to be a part of. I was going to study next year online, but what’s the point, I don’t even want to be here. But of course I’ll never die either because I can’t leave my mum behind now and half the time I’m not even sure if I want to die, and also that dying isn’t SUPER EASY or many more of us would be dead by now.
I feel bad when I post anywhere because despite me suffering years of abuse, I’ve also done things that would be a pipe dream to some people. Like travelling overseas…
Ow, I have no interest in even travelling in my own country in this uhhhh ‘New world’. I’ve stayed in my local area for months. We were never really free and this is just the icing on the cake.
Everything I do is for nothing because I just want to be out of this world, it’s obviously not going to get any better.
I am nothing… nothingness 🙂
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You are also ambitious, caring, and loving. That is something your suicidal thoughts cannot take over apparently. Good job on fighting ?. Every day is a battle with or without depression. Please don’t let depression win.