i dont know how long i can take it i hope next week ill finally be motivated to go and not be spooked out this time
life is a cliff and ive spent most of it just hanging on and i think ill finally be able to get up then my fingers slip more and people care and want to help but i dont know how to help myself idk i cant keep living like this and i ruin everything i touch and make everyone disappointed or mad im not mentslly ill my life is fine nothings happened?? cant keep coping bc ppl are mad but no clue where to even start in getting better properly. ive never been considered bad enough or good enoughh everythings just limbo and i just hope i wont be here next week or that things look up im just really tired and i feel so bad people ar etrying to help and idk man i cant keep making everynoen feel like shit 4ever and fuck man all i live for rn is scabbing off people for drugs and i dont wanna die i dont but im running out of options oim sorry i just dont now where else to post without an insta call home and creepy smile fuck