Im only young, and from what other people have posted, my life isnt that terrible. But i hate it. I lost my house in the fires and lost alot of people that matter. I get bullied at school, IÂ have been used by guys so many times, and often find myself in the school libary with no friends. Im not ugly and i have a fashion sense and i wear makeup, but only so people like me. I smile on the outside, but break from the inside. i have attempted suicide. Got scars on my wrists. But i always think “what would happen if i left” “who would care if i died”. Just because some one is popular and has almost everyhting, doesnt mean they love it.
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Sorry you lost your house in a fire that must really suck. We all lose people that matter that is just part of life, they move away, or we lose contact, or they die. As to the rest not sure what you are saying, it seems somewhat contradictory. You say you get bullied at school and often find yourself alone in the library. Then you say just because someone is popular and has everything doesn’t mean they love it. So are you the popular kid or the one that gets bullied, do you have everything or did you lose everything. Anyway it doesn’t really matter how good or bad your life might look to other people, all that matters is whether or not it makes you happy. You picked the username PleaseHelp what kind of help are you looking for?
Hi yes i understand what you mean, it didnt really make sence. but i will try to explain it now. I get bullied by the older kids and the really popular ones, but the average kids look up to me. all my bestfriends decided to leave me, and go to the higher group of girls. I was isolated and all the average kids didnt look up to me because well why would they want to be me? they had friends, why would they trade that. SO basically no one wanted to hang out with me, and i was practically put down to the bottom of the food chain, i guess. I dont know what i have, but i have a family. A dad i dont see, but a loving mum and siblings. Im not sure what help im lookng for, i just want to be reassured im not alone and that it will get better.
So all your best friends deserted you to join the more popular group, was there some reason that you couldn’t also join that group? Of course it gets better eventually, the older kids that pick on you will graduate eventually. Why would the average kids have to trade their friends to hang out with you, couldn’t you just hang out with these average kids? At least it sounds like your home life isn’t so bad. At least you have the loving mom and siblings, do any of them know how bad things are for you at school? Naw you aren’t alone, many people have had the same trouble in school.
I wasnt allowed to join the most popular group because i had a pimple. i know stupid right! I my home life is much better than some others that Ive read on this website, but i have been living in a caravan for 2 years with 6 other people. That gets really frustrating. The average kids didnt want me because they would get called “the rubbish cleaners” meaning they collect the left overs, and getting called a rubbish cleaner, really isnt fun. So they didnt hang out with me. No one knows, this is really the first time I’ve really ever opened up about this stuff. Thank You xx
a caravan? what you mean like the minivan? 2 years is a long time. A pimple well either kids have gotten even more shallow then I remember, or there must be more to that story. So the popular kids bully you, and bully anyone that hangs out with you. Well yea that would not be much fun. You live with 6 other people and don’t feel like you can open up to any of them? Well school does suck, but remember all the people that torment you now, they don’t have to be any part of your life after you get out of school. I graduated from high school in 1995 and I haven’t seen one person that I went to school with since graduation.
Yes a caravan.One of those little van thingoos. There isnt anymore to that story, just that now i get called retarted names. I could open up to some of my family, but i dont want to because i feel like if i do, they will react, and they will get me help and councilling and shit will go down. I was born in 1998 and dont graduate till 2016.
2016 so you aren’t even in high school yet that would be more like what 8th grade? What kind of shit do you think would g down? So you don’t think you need counseling or anything and you can’t talk to your family, but you just needed to talk about it? Maybe things will be better in high school, bigger school, might be easier to avoid the people that harass you. Might have a better chance of making some friends. You never know what might happen how things might change for the better. Just hang in there. You are way to young to give up yet. Maybe you can make some friends on here, there are several other people around your age that post on this site. Might talk to some of them, share stories or something.
well i live in Australia and because you said ‘mom’ before, i gather your american. In australia, im in year 8, and thats highschool. therefore im in the bigger school. i should talk about it, but im embarrassed. i will try and find younger people that post on this website, if you think it will help. thank you
yea I am American, Australia cool sorry yea I don’t know anything about the school system there one of the people I talk to on here a ton is Australian. a few years older then you though madelene she is in uni but really nice, she might understand what you are going through. Another one that is really nice posts on here as PerfectGirl she is an American high school student but she could relate to the being popular, and then losing all the friends. She is really nice gives people her email address tells them to write to her if they need to talk. You should read her post from a week or 2 ago suicideproject.org/2011/11/perfect-2/
Well you said you just wanted to know you aren’t alone, so yea I think it would help you to talk to some people close to your age having similar problems. Lots of nice people on here, hope you stick around for a while and try to get to know some of them. 🙂
Thank you heaps, i will talk to them. 🙂
sure thing, and my email is kristoffersommer@gmail if you ever just need to talk to someone I am pretty much always on the computer.
heyy im madelene 🙂
id love for you to talk to me WHENEVER you need sweetheart – trust me i know what you’re going through
please hit me up with an email (we australians are family x)
madelenesophia.lombardo@gmail.com
I used to live in a Winebago for a year and a half