I’ve got 44 days left to go, and I’ll be joining you. I am living my life until then as best as I can, savouring every moment. I’m even tempted to run in the local elections just for the joy of it. I am trying to fit a lifetime of pleasure in before I go. I don’t know what comes next, however that doesn’t bother me.
As full as my world seems, I am alone looking out over it. Disconnected from it. It doesnt matter how close I get to people I am so far away. People say they see great things in my future, I see one less day to go. I look out and see the evil in society, the failing of families, the pain of those kept alive when nature says they should be dead. For example is it really fair to make people fight terminal disease?
I am just waiting, getting my final preparations in order. Sorting the dreaded paperwork as I would hate for my stuff to go to people that do not deserve it. I am worried about the timing (I want it to be right to the minute), and slightly worried about the place as I’d love to do it where noone would ever have to find me.
I know where my first choice of place would be, yet its not possible. So instead I am going to the one place I have ever truly loved, I am going visit my old haunts one last time.
It’s still my choice, still driven by logic. I am not giving up on the world, rather the people that turn such beautiful Nature into something so ugly.
P.S. Since last time, I’ve been told that apprently I was never meant to be part of society…
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Hey there,
I was wondering what made you decide to ‘go’ in 44 days? Is it because of a disease(you mentioned it as an example) The way you write it makes you sound educated and strong, which you definetely are. People who feel the need to leave the world are strong, strong because they have to suffer and tolerate things that even the most muscular person can not endure. Feel free to comment back and answer my questions, they are simply out of curiosity.
The date has a special significance, it is the date when the last person I truly cared for died.
Hi Counting,
I’m sorry for your loss. I don’t know who said you were never meants to be part of society, but I can’t agree with them. Society emcompasses a whole range of people, living all kinds of weird and wonderful lives. Providing you aren’t deliberately causing hurt and harm to other people, I don’t see why your choice of life should be any less valid than anyone elses.
I agree with you that there is a whole load of bad stuff out there in the world. But, it’s not all bad – far from it. There’s loads of good people too, and lots of good stuff happening. Could you not try and seek out the good things and try not to think too much about the bad? I don’t mean bury your head in the sand and pretend the bad stuff doesn’t happen, just don’t let it consume all your thoughts. Be aware of it, fight it if and when you can, but make sure you stay happy in the process.
I hope you don’t leave us when you plan to – you seem like a good sort, so you’ll be leaving us a man down against the baddies!
When he says baffles he means the empire
The told Stephen Hawking he would not live more than a few months. They were wrong. He is now 70.
##Baffles meant to be baddies
nothing is fair about the values of the power posessing elite, every living thing diserves the right to end their suffering if they find it meaningless- that’s the way it’l be when I’m vice prince of the illuminati, ther’ll be ******** clinics and they’l take walk ins. only the dead are meant to be part of society- perhaps you will be, they’l name a park bench after you.