Im not sure how i found this website. But i did, and as i began reading through these posts i felt myself being able to relate more and more. Ive never tried suicide, but like most, its crossed my mind. Theres something about it that makes me feel so safe. It seems so welcoming and warm. Escaping this world.. escaping my problems.. my family.. my “friends”.. my disgusting body and annoying personality. Just leaving it all behind and giving up. I would.. if i had the guts. The guts to research how many pills. The guts to leave some form of letter as to why. The guts to push the blade a little bit deeper.. just a little bit deeper. If only i had the guts.
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It also takes a lot of guts to continue moving forward when the odds seem stacked against you… It takes a lot of guts when your circumstances might make success difficult. You have more guts than you think… Don’t give up.
“Something” got u here and i am grateful, …being able to write on here and get feedback is good for us on here, we r a society all on our own, just like bankers, truckers etc…i support your feelings and hope u continue to trust in this site and the ppl who are here……
Do you realize how low the success rates are for cutting and pills suicides? Often people just end up in worse pain than before. I don’t think you’d want that.
You should read Hamlet’s to be or not to be soliloquy! Your post reminds me of it. I know how you feel. I have thought about dying every day since grade school and yet I have never attempted. Unfortunately I am a semi-hoarder and I like to preserve things and keep them forever. That includes my body so I have never done anything to harm it. But I do want to end my life. I strongly believe I was not meant for this world. I have no goals, I don’t want to reproduce and my parents constantly tell me that I am unpleasant. I think you don’t have the guts because you’re not absolutely sure that you want to die yet. I think you should continue to live until you’re a little older. Things might get better. Or not, then decide. Once you are resolved, act. When it comes to my demise I will start with the least messy method but if that does not work, I will not give up. Winners find a way, losers find an excuse.