IM NOT EVEN SAFE INSIDE MY MIND!

ive been having horrible dreams..

i used try and sleep my life away because i hate it so much

now.. i cant even close my eyes.

im being trapped, mistreated its horrible

i wake up and i need drugs

anti depressants dont do shit but make you more depressed

weed doesnt do much anymore

i need something more

i need to stop having these dreams

no one is a friend in my dreams

all my friends in life are trying to hurt me and i let them

i think its because id rather at least have them there.. even if they hurt me .. in my dreams anyways

i cant seperate the reality from the dreams.

i take out my anger when im awake

i wonder if these dreams are signes

not that everyone is out to get me but they end up hurting me

one way or another.. if just with one word, one look ,one action

i wake up in a no nO NOO NOOO ! state of mind

sweating and heart racing

im so afraid

will these people really hurt me

should i do something before they do ?

i feel like i have no control

it makes me nauseous

the dreams

the life

the wanting it all end

if you know something about dreams or something that can help… please …