so… a lot. It’s easter holidays and told myself that i’m allowed to cut myself… it has slightly spiraled out of control. My left wrist is covered in small thin, lines and my right has 3 simple lines. My upper left arm looks…well. i carved ‘CRAZY’ into it….
Basically, i met this guy online, he is 18. we talked about a lot and then out of nowhere he removes me as a friend and blocks me…i could deal with the pain if i hadn’t started to really like him… and he also told me ‘ I would never leave you’…
I want to be sort of like my old self, when i like Aaron, i’m basically trying to kid myself that i still do…but i don’t really know…
Life at home…is getting unbearable… everything seems to go wrong and then an arguement is started….
So much anger, pain, depression and suffering…
I’ve been thinking about suicide again…. Everyday, i just seem to be getting more and more depressed… So what’s the point?
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There is no point… Let go of the ,, Rock” Or you WILL sink with it…
No point in living…
I completely understand. My best friend just did the same thing. He told me hundreds of times in the past month that he would never leave and that I could keep pushing but he wasn’t going anywhere. And then….he disappeared. He has a reason-he was told he was not allowed to by legal people but there are ways to reach out. He just stopped caring. Or he believes what people say about me.
yeah… hurts so bad… i hope aaron doesn’t leave me like that… :/.
I know and it hurts. I can barely eat, I can’t be happy about anything, and I just want to know why. I miss him so much but it’s awful because I don’t even know why he stopped caring. At least then I would have an answer. But please don’t give up even of it does happen. There are those of us who also suffer but maybe we can help one another.
would love to help others, part of the reason why i keep coming back to this website…
Yo!
There is no point (In suffering) Let go of the ,,Rock”(Past, present events, guilt, pain and so on) Or you will sink with it(It WILL Down you DOWN AND DOWN TILL YOU CAN’T BREATH!!!)…
Gosh… Why do you think there is any point in DEATH? THINK, Who would change? How would you know?
everybody dies… we don’t have a choice about that…
Easier said than done. I wish I could move on but I can barely function. I know I will because I am too scared to kill myself but I am hurting so much. What helps is trying to talk to other people because at least I can feel like I can contribute something to the universe.
yep…im the same..