Right now I feel like I should just get rid of myself, not only for my sake, but for everyone else’s. My parents are pressuring me into studying law, and I hate it. I’ve had to move from my home city to study it, and there is so much pressure on me to pass everything that I feel like my mind is going to explode. I’ve tried talking to my parents about how much I don’t want to be in this city and about how much I hate law, but they just keep telling me that I’m “wasting the opportunities in front of me”, and that “I’ll regret the decision to quit law for the rest of my life”, oh and lets not forget that “I won’t make anything of myself, and I wont grow up.” They say they love me unconditionally, but they’ll only love me if I make them proud. My other sisters never had this pressure thrown on them. I’m the “golden child”, the one who is meant to make all their dreams come true because they didn’t manage to do that themselves. I’m so alone here, I don’t understand anything that is being taught to me, I’m failing and all that everyone can say is “don’t be silly, you can do it.” Great. How does that help in the slightest. I’m being shoved into a career that I don’t want to be in and I’m going to be forced to work in that profession for the rest of my life. I’m seriously unhappy where I am at the moment, and it looks like I’m going to be in this position indefinitely. Â I need to escape and the only way I can think of escaping is to end it all and die. My life is hell at the moment, I might as well quit this hell and move onto the next.