My mom just gave birth to a baby girl which means i now have 4 sisters. I’m afraid that she’ll end up to hate the world,to feel unwanted and to feel like she needs to be perfect like the other 3. I want this baby to be positive about everything,to believe,to hope,to think that everything isn’t based on appearance and that everyone should be excepted. I want her to be open minded and open hearted like i am. Me as the first born watched as my mother attempted to raise us all in hate but i was the only one able to wake up and realize there was nothing to hate and that hate only hearts more. Im also afraid because the father of this child is a pedophile who has molested me before and im terrified that he will try to touch her and take advantage of her because she is so young and so innocent. This man is a dead beat and i can honestly say we are better off without him,he’s hurt my mother countless times,he has no job,he has no respect for others and all he does is critisize and sends negative vibes into this family. I have 10 years without a father figure and i don’t expect one anymore,i dont know what a father is or what he is supposed to do and honestly i don’t care about mine, he’s been dead for so long it’s awkward for me to even think about his name,the pictures i see i don’t recognize him to me he is just another stranger. Me and my bestfriend J are gonna try to be the best serogant parents for this baby because i know that i can raise this child much better then my own mother i mean i’ve been raising myself and my sisters on my own so whats one more to the pile gonna add.
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Although you are worried, I still say congratulations on a new sister… She will be a lucky girl to have you. I don’t know what to say about your situation…I’m sorry you have that to deal with, and I’m glad you’ve realized it just isn’t right. Have you tried child services or even just 911 about this man? He is a pedophile and disrespects all of you, and that’s not nor safe – he doesn’t deserve to be there and should be put away. I’m sorry you didn’t really get a father figure – though it seems like even with how you’re life has been you’re a strong person and you’ve been raising yourself and your sister. That’s not easy, and you’re an amazing person for doing this… Again I am glad your new sister has you to care for her…she’ll be in good hands with you. :/ Wish you didn’t have to grow up so fast and have to raise everyone – that’s not fair to you. Still, you seem like a strong person and I hope you can pull through. I do hope something can be done about the man…