Hey everyone. I thought I had seen it all, done it all….type A personality, great job, loving family, creative, you know the type. Except I have gone downhill in the past year after a series of events happened in my life. I lost my dream job, my husband had an affair, my sons both got in trouble with the law, and much more. This coupled with the fact that I am bipolar has left me with the feeling of utter failure. I know I could be successful at ending my life, and I think about it quite a lot. My son also thinks about suicide and we talk about it together. Isn’t that sick?! I don’t think that anyone would really miss me when I am gone, seriously. In many ways it feels like it would be a relief to be rid of the depression, mind racing, irrational thoughts that captivate my though process. I want to be happy again, but don’t see it happening at all any time soon. Maybe I served my purpose in life and that is it.
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No one has the right to tell you not to, nor the right to tell you to. If you were hoping for a go ahead do it, I hope you don’t get that cause they don know a true depression. A depression in actuality is the mind telling you that shit is not going right. It doesn’t mean ending it is the answer. Sure it’s a great escape but feeling the blade end it, the poison slowly slip you away from actuality. That is true suicide. Knowing that it’s over and beginning to feel the effect it has, even the brief second you’re still alive. All comes crashing down and any weight you had I your shoulder… Collapses. Not by leaving, bu your shoulders have shattered and the soul can neve be set free. WHAT THE FUCK DO I KNOW. I’m a so called 16 year old philosopher with an open mind and the willing was to share what little I have. Instinctively this may tell you that I’m wrong. Openmindedly seein it from my opinion may lead to acknowledge that anyone and everyone you know, somehow relies on you for something. The lettlest things we do have a huge effect I peoples lives. Again, what do I know. But know one thing, I love you. I truly do, your choice is your choice and god bless you for the difference you’ve made to this world.
What!?!No don’t do that!Let your son know that life qets better!(even tho It doesn’t)qive him hpe even tho he’s at that aqe were he knows there Is no hope.