Just from being on this website it’s apparent to me that there are so many people who feel hopeless and lost, ranging in age, different genders, coming from numerous countries, different religions ect…
I’m just curious, not about everyones story as to why they want to die or give up on life, but i want to know what emotion is the most common trigger for people.
Meaning, what emotion can’t you handle? or don’t want to handle? Fear,anger,embarrassment,jealousy,sadness…ect?
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Great post, for me its probably the emptyness or maybe the need to control something… Anything… But mostly the emptyness
thanks, i think i know where you’re coming from, what do you feel like you need to control? Do you ever get the chance to control anything?
Being hollow.. miserable. What triggers it? Left alone too long with my thoughts, so I suppose confusion and a sense of hopelessness? Surrender? I don’t know. This is a hard thing to explain.
I see where you’re coming from too, i wonder if being alone too long is the reason so many people get caught up in being unhappy. It’s weird though i mean i think you can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness. sometimes i like to be alone with my thoughts so i can reflect on why i’m feeling miserable but still i know doing that’s not a good thing. Like you said it’s a hard thing to explain
Yeah i agree with you savanna… Its not just one emotion, thats the problem its a whole range. I oftrn feel totally lost and really confused and oftenin a lot of pain when the emptyness hits.. Its really hard to explain. The chronic emptyness is pretty bad though
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Yeah i control stuff all the time, mostly my weight and eating. Im a binge eater, undereater, selfharmer i also exercise everyday… So yeah i control lots of “bad” things. But i do them without thinking
That’s what i figured, I’ve had bulimia since i was thirteen i don’t know if i ever fully realized it could be a control thing too but for the most part i do it because i feel better “feeling empty” sounds really negative but that’s how i see it. I guess, i don’t think about it much either, and when i do i realize it’s sad that one stable thing in my life is negative. Glad you shared that.
I can’t handle the emptiness, the suffocation, the anger, and sadness. Mostly the being alone and empty though. That’s whats always gets me to try to commit suicide again.
what’s your favorite positive emotion, if you could feel a certain way most of the time which way would you want to feel?
I want to feel happy and free.
what’s holding you back from feeling that way?
My favourite positive sound is laughter, i guess i havent really thought about that, but it would maybe be warmth, like the little tingle you get when someone you care for gives oyu a hug, and a kind of relaxing smile snakes across your face, feels nice.
it made me smile to read that, well said, really pretty way of describing that. I agree 100% laughter feels better than anything in the world, no medicine can compare.
Holding me back? I guess my own body. That and my screwed up life.
Is how you feel changeable?
Ha they say the meds should’ve changed the way I feel yet they haven’t.
I’m pretty sure the drama in my life is not helping my case either. I wish
do you mind if i ask what’s going on?
If anyone is like me, they had a dysfunctional upbringing which didn’t set things up in our minds and hearts very well so as to know what the best way of approaching ourselves in the world. As a result what our parents reflected back to us wasn’t the healthiest in allowing us to feel free, and pumped for life. With respect to control…I felt the same way having grown up with so much chaos…who wouldn’t want to have control…however I learned that the need to control, controls you/us…So I’ve practiced letting go, and that choice is very liberating and I am actually more in charge or in control of how I respond to things. Cheers!
That sounds pretty positive, i’m very happy for you, way to go 🙂 keep doing that!
Oh horrible household. Parents are always criticising me, stepdad I hate. Its really bad here that my aunt is going to take me away. Ugh idk how to describe it. Like its just really bad.
I’m assuming you’re a boy? How old are you? I mean if you’re in your late teens, think about this you can get out of there soon, college is going to be my outlet and i can’t wait for it to come. Maybe, living with your aunt will be a new change for you, could be a good thing.
HAHA i’m a girl. Don’t worry though, youaren’t the first one to think I was a boy. Nope I’m just determined to rebel. But either way, yes I’m in my late teens. But it can’t be soon enough. Um I hate it here. There is no privacy, no freedom. I am continually locked up in my room.
I’m sorry lol, my fault 😛 lol i’m kind of the opposite, i have so many siblings, and a lot of” circumstances” that make my house a mess. I have no rules, my rooms the basement, i don’t have a curfew but i don’t do anything bad. If anything, i guess i’m a really honest responsible young adult. I actually want the opposite i’d love it if i was protected and if my family had time to show me they care. I’m alone to much.
I’m alone all the time though. And I don’t think you would want a tracking device in your phone, or your texts and emails read, or being yelled at for taking a walk around the block. I rebel because of the shit they put me threw. Not to mention I’m always getting yelled at for no reason.
Well hey, you said you’re in your late teens leave? or pay for your own phone bill and then technically they won’t have the right to put a tracking device in your phone. Idk, and why don’t you block them from viewing those things, like your emails, that should be easy to do.
I’m trying. Ugh it’s just really bad. Ha I sat in my “moms” seat tonite at dinner and got yelled at! Ugh thats so stupid! We don’t have assigned seats. That’s just one of the stupid things.
Omg i know what you mean, i honestly think people just need to be assholes to feel better about themselves. My step-dad did something like that to me before. He thinks because i’m a girl i’m a slave. He’s always like “do daddy a favor and go get me a soda” like na, get it yourself hahah
Ha my stepdad ain’t like that. He just thinks he can tell me what to do and I’m like go fuck yourself. Ugh he’s threatened me with cops, tackled me before. Ugh I hate it here. Tha’s all. But yeah, its just one problem on top of everything else I guess.
so are you going to move with your aunt?
I hope so. She is going to fight for custody or something. I don’t know. You know how they say you can loss your daughter or son by the things you do? Well my mom lost me a long time ago.
I know what you mean, i’m sure our stories are totally different but we’re around the same age so i can relate there. If you have time if you read my first post”because i needed to say something” that one explains my feelings towards my mom and basically my story, it’s definetly a different kind of story. , i’m sure you have a good reason for feeling that way too. I hope you get to live with your aunt 🙂
I think depression. Anger feels like power and motivaton, depression feels like I will never leave my bed again and If I do it will be to buy a gun
that was an interesting way of explaining anger, i hope you don’t go buy a gun. Take a walk to a park instead and just breath 😛
Ur 17 years old, u can leave home at 16 (at least in ireland) they cant force u to stay if u dont want to be there. What did ur mother do?
is she from Ireland or are you?
Thanks. My mom just was too critical. She never liked anything I did. Was always complaining about me and my sis. Just liked to verbally abuse me.
look at the bright side, you have an opportunity to get away. How you handle her critisism is up to you turn it into motivation, don’t dwell on what she’s said, move forward. I know you can.
Na im ireland, not sure just yet where she from
are you around her age too?
Am guess i am ya
Um I live in New York.
What do u intend to do with ur life?
Um I’ll tell you later. I have to go to therapy. 🙁 I’ll be on once I get home though.
Best of luck DR 🙂
I used to live in Ireland, i lived and worked over there, i miss it sometimes. One of my landlords was an old farmer who i am not kidding tied his trousers with string! Lol 🙂
I have to fight with a lot of problems – first is that my self-esteem is never stable – first I feel like I’m the center of the universe and then I’m just a used piece of toilet paper. Then, after hopelessly trying to cope with my personal problems I have been running through almost any religion, self-help stuff, philosophy and I end up being completely confused about what the hell I am here for.
Haha I’m back. I want to major in Anthropology and travel the world. Then I want to go to medical school to become a cancer doctor to save lives. I want to help people.
Too many emotions, I can’t narrow it down to answer your question. Sorry about that, but it really got me thinking about how i really feel about different situations- It made me understand somewhat more of myself, so thank you for that. 🙂
I’m glad the post made you think, what understandings did you come too? 🙂