It’s been a while…
A long while, actually… over a year. People still respond to my last post, which means I have helped over 1,000 people that were considering suicide…
But tonight I write to you in distress. Yes, I too, though a survivor, have many struggles.
Today is my 19th birthday, and I’m alone.
I have been drinking, and thinking much more than is healthy.
I have lost so much… yet I am needed here. It hurts, and I know I’ll get through this, but at times… you just need to vent.
Take a deep breath… think of what has driven you to this emotional point, and realize how much you’ve already overcome.
Why break now? There’s no guarantee that there’s another side after this, so why not wait this out, and see all that life has to offer? What if the afterlife is a worse hell? What if it does not end the pain and suffering?
Whoever is reading this… if you have read my story… you know a small part of what I have lived through… and still, I want more… to experience, good or bad… because that is life. Happiness is not a destination! It is a moment in time, and we let those moment pass us by because we are greedy and selfish.
You’ve been happy before, and another moment will come.. the question is; Will you take it for granted this time?
I am able to be contacted day or night on my cell (734 430 5560), and I am always willing to help…
I’ve been there, more than you could ever understand… and I’m here for you. What do you have to lose?
Pick up the phone and give it one last shot…
4 comments
Birthday Happy!!!! (: though, I’m down and been drinking too, for a few years now. I just numb the night down with drugs and alcohol. My 23 birthday is in a few days and I’ve noticed it really gets hard around this time.
Happy Birthday.
Sorry Chelsii…
Once I found out that I will never attain what I want, in addition to all the pain, life had no point.
And getting treatment just to live another painful decade is not worth it.
First off happy birthday!
Hey Cheslii,I don’t even know were to beqan???This Is my first time seeinq you on this site.Then aqain you said that you haven’t been on here In a lonq time.I clicked your name to see your other posts.I red the “Monsters” and “I was nothinq” and just damn you know?No one should have ever endured what you have endured.Enouqh about us,It’s your time.You help others on a daily bases and now It’s about that time tha someone asks you what’s qot you feelinq down and all you know?If you qet a 832 call then It’s qonna be me, (life)even the people that qive help need It sometimes you know?
Thanks to all of you for your comments, but remember; this is a survival story! It just goes to show that everyone has struggles, and everyone can get through them. It is okay to break down and feel, as long as you get back up! I love you all!