I came across this site the other day while looking on the internet for, well the obvious, a way out. I didn’t really know what to say after logging on to the forums, I guess there’s so much but I’m used to keeping everything to myself due to fear of judgement. I’ve been reading other posts people have put up in the forum and can see I’m not alone, which gives me a strange sense of comfort.
It’s taken me a while to really understand or rather admit to myself while I feel I can’t go on living anymore, mostly through guilt, loneliness, a feeling of being incomplete and not knowing who I really am. To me my future seems bleak, and if am to go through the rest of life feeling the way I do I’d rather go now. Sometimes I just wish I’d never wake up or someone would just kill me. If there was a way I could just find happiness again I know I wouldn’t feel this way.
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To me my future seems bleak, and if am to go through the rest of life feeling the way I do I’d rather go now.
I have said those words to myself a gazillion times.
Yeah we here now what your going through
You care too much about what others think and what others think is none of your business because it has no impact on what you ultimately decide is best for you…when you consider the judgements or perceptions of others, you’re leaving yourself wide open for confusion. Keep it simple, make decisions that serve your well being and happiness only….takes some courage but do it anyway. Why not be courageous and happy for yourself. I guess it doesn’t make that much sense?
If you live your life considering the thoughts of others you won’t get anywhere so give that up, or don’t give it up…it’s up to you. When you follow your own bliss, your future can start to feel pretty good and you’ll delete your post…That may not be a good idea?