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Fuck. I’m surprised I’m still here. Yesterday I passed out from blood loss. Luckily no one found me but imagine how I felt when I woke up. Fuck. I’m still upset. Wht is wrong with me??? Why am I like this? Why must I live with somthing I cannot bare. I know ther are people who do have it worse and are still happy. But I cnt controll depression. So fuck this.

I dont know why i started cutting. But now i do it because i hate myself. I just want to know why i am so depressed. For no reason ill start to feel an intense sadness, and somtimes might start day dreaming about suicide or cutting. what the fuk is wrong with me??? half the time i want to kill my self so badly and the other half im wondering what made me think of somthing like that in the first place. its fuked up. why do i keep thinking about it and trying to do it if i always stop at the last second […]

im done. i fuking give up. I don’t care anymore, im tired of all of this. Just do me a favor and tell me the best way to kill myself before my parents or anyone can find me.

“My hand floats along crystal waters,

and i cant help but wonder,

How long could i last under the surface?

Am i the next person

to stay long enough?

Im unsure.

im wondering whether or not it’s real.

and the only way to find out,

is to jump

just like jumping off the tops of buildings,

or drawing a hrd

cold line on my skin with the razor

My hand floats along crystal waters,

i cant help but think

how long could i last under the calm surface?

long enough?

when you know a seven nation army coulnt hold these feelings back

its time to let go.”