As I come to grasp that I’ve had depression since I was a child
As I come to grasp the cruel joke god has played on me
I can’t have kids because they’ll jut be as fucked up as me
Why am I even here
(Song)
The way to deal with a narcissist, for anyone wondering, is to ask them questions. Questions that reveal how empty they are. None of that turn the other cheek crap. Just keep your cool and be nice and keep asking questions and watch them get flustered. It’s how you turn the mirror back on the narcissist.
Please
Take this
And run far away
Far away from me
I am tainted
And happiness
And peace of mind were never meant for me
It’s gotten to a point where I literally witness my abuser’s mannerisms manifesting in those I talk to because I’ve internalized their neurotic energy so deeply. I see the dynamic between my mom and I play out in real time between me and strangers. I recreate that dynamic. My mother has crawled inside my body. And made me a clone of herself. And now she seeks to make more clones of herself. I’m contaminated. And I’m contaminating others.
“okay like
Took me a little while to realize it but what he’s saying basically is removing faith as a motivator in replacing it with a blind devotion to facts is similar to giving a child access to the internet and replacing their natural curiosity with an ability to use google whenever they want
The shift from faith to concrete evidence as the basis for reason is the beginning of a process which eliminates all intelligence from mankind
Same thing with nihilism
communism
globalism
transhumanism
It’s about heterogeneity”
“yes its what solomon is saying”
“this just makes me think, and i mean, really solidifies it, that everything has already been thought of and said
so
i […]
i’m not a real person
but i don’t want to be a person
being a person is worse
but each is worse than the other in its own unique way
what to do
i could browse discord or sp
i could turn on my playstation
i could go back to sleep
yay
If I ever fix the shithole I’m in, I’m gonna be one hell of a genius.
Figure I should be the one to ask, I feel people disregard me around here anyway so I’m not afraid to break the silence. I’m sure we’ve all noticed he’s gone, what happened? Just a shout out @Once
Man, I’m sorry for taking up space for this, but my incel roommate just won 20,000 dollars, lol. Maybe god felt bad for him not getting laid.
Wow, I can’t believe it’s been three years since I’ve seen A. I’ve been trying to think of a way to explain it but the only thing I can compare it to that comes to mind is like spiritual pressure in the anime Bleach. I know there’s some American superhero with a tragic story like that, where they’re bound to be alone, except by that one person who can withstand whatever it is they’re radiating without being affected. Somehow I have no clue who the fuck I’m talking about though. It’s probably someone really obvious. But it’s like spiritual pressure from “Bleach”. The longer I expose […]
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I think I would rather take a bullet in the head than stand another minute in this place.
(Earth)
I’m so tired I would hit the ground like a slate of marble if it all hit at once
Just read over my YouTube comment history and realized how bad my personality disorder is
Anyone else know this feeling? And I’m never going to see them again
problem solved, eh? 🙂