Till yesterday I wanted to kill myself but now I want to kill my father first.
I hate myself for this but the pain and sufferings we are going through is all because of him and it’s unbearable.
I don’t know if I can explain the amount of pain I’m going through evry day that force me to think this way,to kill my own father .
A dying soul
A dying soul
Hi! I'm a 20 yr old girl from India. Depressed ,lonely ... just an ordinary girl , nobody ever bothered to know.
An online friend of mine has been talking about having suicidal thoughts for a while now.
He is suffering from some serious health issues that can’t be cured. His family is just a piece of greedy shit, who makes him feel like a burden.
I know how its feels to be lonely when nobody cares about you but still I always tell him to stop .
He tells me that there’s no other option left. He don’t want to suffer anymore.
But How can I let him go this way . I really don’t know what to do
Facing so many dificulties and having to deal with so many problems in life all together is something that’s more than one can handle or bear.
Especially when its hitting u from all the direction one after another,making u fall miserably.
If that ‘God’ really exists I really want him that why the hell he is so angry with me that he is punishing me so badly
It’s been a while since I’ve been here or shared anything.
It’s not that I don’t need this anymore but I’m really just fed up of myself.
Repeating the same things doesn’t make any sense when I’m not doing anything to change it.
The time passes so quickly but my world doesn’t seem to move.
I’m still standing at the same place where I was.
The world around me,the peoples I’m surrounded by except a few peoples, I hate them all. This is awful ,disgusting .I can’t breathe.
I want to travel to those beautiful places where the nature will serve peace to my soul […]
When the god himself is so unfair ,how can we expect this living world to be fair?
When I get close to somebody,have somebody to talk and share my feelings I start feeling like a burden to them .
Like my presence is a burden in their lives.
I don’t want them to carry that.
So I feel its better to keep myself away from them and run away.
And this happens to me every time.
Am I really depressed?
This world is making me confuse about myself?
Confused about who I am?
On Monday,
a 24 yr old boy committed suicide by jumping off the19th storey of a 5 star hotel after a live video steaming of his final moments on fb which he called ‘ suicide tutorial video’ .Its all over the internet. He planned everything.
It made everybody disturbed.
Well it was obviously not the only suicide case of this country, there are many. This highly polluted country has a large number of depressed population also.
Somebody is dying everyday.
But it got the popularity because he posted his video online.
News are being made,people are talking about it .Just a another suicide.
But the […]
I cut myself yesterday,on my thighs.
I’m doing terrible in my exams .
I wasn’t prepared for it at all
now I’m really confused ,
Am I failing because I’m depressed or just laziness and over thinking is ruining my life?
Like others my room is the most comfortable place for me.
When I’ve to go outside, everything that happens works like rubbing salt on my open wounds.
People really need to understand that its never okay to comment rudely on someone’s weight,especially when they have no idea about how it feels.
I keep myself locked inside my room because I really don’t want to face them. They make me even more depressed and lonely. And they think they are motivating me?
I would have really appreciated if somebody has given me some serious and helpful advice. But this way,
Their harsh and hurtful words aren’t doing […]
I’m just a fucking piece of shit !
a worthless, garbage ,lazy,and useless person. I’m just wasting my parent’s money.
They are paying for my education,living cost, everything.
My final exam coming in 4 days,but I’m still not prepared.
why?
Because I’m a lazy person and can’t concentrate in studies.
I spend 5-6 hrs daily just sitting at my study table with books in front of me.
I keep staring at them but don’t read.
I’m also doing the same thing right now.
The idea that tomorrow will be better than today,that gets people out of bed in the morning or thinking things may
be better […]
I’m highly sensitive person. Even the small things that happens to me bothers me a lot. I can’t stop thinking.
Is it possible to have a happy relationship between a sexual and an asexual person?
Can a sexual man accept an asexual woman as a partner if they are in love with each other and emotionally attached?
Today I read a story of a married couple.
It was narrated by the husband. He narrated the story of his sex life with his ex-wife who was a asexual.
I’m not married and still a virgin. But after reading the story I felt so weird.
Because sometimes I feel and experience exactly the same. Sometimes I feel like a completely different person. So I took this online test.
I never thought about it like that before . But now I think I’m asexual but […]
Who is the most important person of your life?
Who will be most affected if you go?
For me its my mom.
Not wanting to get out of bed everyday in the morning is not normal,
Feeling tired ,exhausted, lazy all the time is not normal.
Unmotivated all the time. I don’t feel any excitement in my life anymore. I’m always feeling down and feeling low all the time. Everyday is the same day and nothing changes.
I sit around a lot, unable to be active
avoiding all the necessary works and just want to sleep for a whole day and do nothing.
I’m not normal and never will be.
I love air and the water element.
So just wondering, wouldn’t it be great to die with one of the things I love?
Jumping off a tall enough building,
which can give me a complete death.
I don’t want to be left with broken bones.
Falling faster and faster flying through the cold air and at a point my body will hit the ground.
Or jumping into a large water body which is cold and clean. Its not one of the quickest but
drowning in fresh water is relatively less painful and peaceful way to die .
Both of these are the most commonly used […]
Haven’t been here for a while.
Because I’m just too busy doing the same things everyday.
Tired of dealing with the same shit every single day.
Haven’t seen any doctor,but I know I’m mentally I’ll.
And there must be something terribly wrong with me.
I’m a defective human.
I have tried several times to write a post but whenever I try to write I find no word to express myself. I feel blank in my mind.
Why do I feel so empty inside?
There’s so so so many things going through my head all the times. A thousands of thoughts running into my mind,but at the same time, […]
(A Hindi song)
https://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2017/02/Kitni-Baatein.mp3
1:13 am
Laying on the bed, with the lights switched off .
This is one of the songs I prefer to listen when I go to sleep.
Memories… great memories ,painful memories,regrets … it brings all the memories in front of my eyes.
Remembering those who were once part of my life but now are gone.
Music has been always there for me when people haven’t.
I hate my dad
I hate him so much.
I would never want to have a person like him in my life ever.